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the right choice

Happy Earth Hour ūüėÄ ¬†I’m blogging on my iPad by candle light in this hour of darkness. ¬†That counts, right? ¬†With a keyboard that doesn’t light up, it’s easier said than done!

I had an interesting dream a few sleeps ago. ¬†Pretty rare for me to even remember my dreams, but this one I wont forget. ¬†I won a lot of money. ¬†Awesome, right?? ¬†BUT I was in a wheelchair. ¬†Not so awesome. ¬†I was going on a trip somewhere tropical, but the vivid memory part starts when I got to the airport and requested the special assistance of a wonderful little Scottish lady from my past. ¬†Someone who really held a special place in my heart… I needed¬†her “help” getting to my flight, but I mostly wanted to give her a card I had brought telling her I missed her. ¬†And containing¬†a cheque for a million¬†dollars. ¬†Told you it was strange. ¬†When I woke up, I wasn’t upset I didn’t have copious amounts of $$ to throw around, but I was damn grateful¬†to not be in a wheelchair! ¬†I took it as a good¬†little reminder to appreciate life. ¬†And Mum, if I win the lottery you’re on my list ūüėČ

14.5

For this first time of the Open competition, I passed up the opportunity to do my workout on Friday.  Since the Thursday before 14.4, my hip has been hurting.  Not much out there that involves your hips more than thrusters.  LOTS of thrusters.

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Burpees suck?? ¬†No…chilling on the couch with ice packed on your HIP sucks. ¬†Everyday it’s getting better though ūüôā ¬†Monday, I’ll be ready. ¬†Then just burpees will suck, and thrusters too.

When I woke up Friday morning I was walking around without a limp for the first time in more than a week. ¬†14.5 called my name and I was very tempted. ¬†Went to the box at 3:00 like normal but with the intention to just cheer and take pictures. ¬†Watching athletes dead on the floor after completing this little monster of a WOD I was even MORE tempted. ¬†I mentioned that to Coach Dave. ¬†He got this little smirk on his face and responded something along the lines of “That’s cause you’re crazy. ¬†It’s something we all have in common.” ¬†True story. ¬†That being said, I made a smart choice I think. ¬†I’m waiting till Monday. ¬†Not enjoying the wait though… more time to think!

“Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same” – The Frey

Side note – yesterday my nutritional commitment went out the window. ¬†I ate a normal breakfast, munched a few raw veggies during the day, then when hunger hit full force around 4 all hell broke loose. ¬†Also drank too much coffee and pretty much no water. ¬†Then between a protein bar, dried cranberries, walnuts, a tbsp (more like 3) of chocolate cream cheese, an unmeasured amount of coconut butter (not all at once! But spread over the remainder of the day) ¬†I felt guilty and my stomach hated me. ¬†Great combo. ¬†I did throw out the chocolate cream cheese, or the 3 tbsp would have been even worse. ¬†Good thing it was on sale. ¬†ūüė¶ ¬†So here’s my public declaration:

Starting April 1 2014, I am committed to a 30 day sugar detox. ¬†I will empty my apartment of anything containing added sugar (so long cranberries and walnuts!) with the hope that after 30 days I will have no desire to see them again. ¬†I was doing really well with this in January. ¬†Then I went on vacation and allowed myself some “treats” and have not recovered since. ¬†I’m DONE. ¬†The wheelchair dream keeps poking at me and I realize that crossfit is a part of what has helped me fight back against MS, but the nutritional component needs to be there too.

 

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new fav.

 

Tried out a new recipe last night that was 110% worth sharing. ¬†Picked this one cause I had a cauliflower hanging out in my fridge that was getting a little tired and as hard as I tried, I just couldn’t bring myself to make some pizza crust. ¬†Just not feeling it. ¬†Also happy to find an alternative to the usual cauliflower rice. ¬†Ever made that crap? ¬†I did. ¬†Once. ¬†My apartment smelled like garbage for days after. ¬†Like brussels sprouts bad, only worse! ¬†So not worth it. ¬†I mean, cauli. is ok, but not that good. ¬†Wow, I’m rambling. ¬†Maybe because I decided it was a good idea to skip the 6am WOD this morning cause my hip is still bugging me and 14.5 is announced tonight. ¬†My mind is in need of another outlet ūüėČ ¬†My body may need the rest day, but my brain absolutely craves the box. ¬†Might head in for 9:15 to hang out with the foam roller and work on some pull-ups…

Anyways, this was the most amazing meal I’ve made in a long time. ¬†That has absolutely nothing to do with the lack of culinary creativity I’ve suffered from recently either. ¬†Also opted to borrow a pic from the site cause the photo I took was horrible but at the time I was hungry and didn’t really care enough to take another. ¬†DK is my foodie pal at work. ¬†We decided a while ago that sometimes you just get so hungry that it can make you irritable or angry. ¬†We also decided that “hangry” was the perfect word for this. ¬†I wasn’t quite at that point last night, but whatever. ¬†Juli B from paleOMG knocked it well out of the park with this one. ¬†Super easy too. ¬†Trust me, worth trying. ¬†Wait… here’s a pic ūüôā ¬†and the link. ¬†Enjoy! ¬†(my opinion… doesn’t need the onion. ¬†but that’s just my opinion.)

paleOMG Mexican Rice Bowls

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stuck on replay

Ever find yourself stuck on replay?¬† Like you’re just going through the motions of life day after day but not really going anywhere?¬† Hmm…

I’m a bit behind on my crossfit¬†logging I know.¬† Seems my sometimes-I-feel-like-an-80-year-old hip is back to its old¬†tricks.¬† I should make an appointment to go see the box vet (aka massage wizard), but I seem to be plowing through my coverage for these services and need to hold back if I can.¬† I’ve considered skipping the box more than once when seeing movements that were not conductive to hip recovery, but then realized that there’s always and option.¬† Even if I show up and just spend time mobilizing I figure it’s better than sitting on my butt :p¬† A quick catch up on all of the scaling I’ve resorted to the last few days:

Sunday March 23

In Teams of 2, complete
1 Mile Run
50- Back Squats #225/#155    50 strict press #55
1 Mile Run    1 mile row
Both Athletes run at the same time, 1 Athlete squatting at a time

– ARE YOU KIDDING ME???¬† I’ve been dying¬†to get out and run for EVER!¬† The hip was not in agreeance, but for the first round I decided “EFF IT.¬† I’m running”.¬† It hurt.¬† Sigh¬† ūüė¶¬† And it was -15 out and windy as hell.¬† And Coach Dave didn’t provide any warning that we would be outside so I ran in shorts, tall socks and a thin long sleeve.¬† My knees went numb almost instantly so that wasn’t an issue, but my ears and hands hurt like hell :p¬† “Expect the unexpected”.¬† I know, I know…

Post WOD, two members had challenged each other to a wallballs showdown to see who could complete 100 faster.¬† A fun little event and treats to the winner ūüôā

 

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                                                  CrossFit Division: 4:22 for 100 Wallballs… Solid job!

Monday March 24

10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1  for time
Deadlifts #185/#135     #105
Burpees over the Bar

time – 7:27

This one was fun ūüôā¬† I’m a freak, I know, but I actually enjoy burpees¬†and my hip didn’t complain about them either.¬† The deads¬†felt ok-ish too provided I listened to Coach Dave’s advise and fought to keep my left knee from dropping inward.¬† I was happy with #105, but on a normal day I could have totally gone Rx here.

Oh ya!¬†Our warm-up consisted of a bunch of the usual stuff, including a light jog around the inside of the box and sideways shuffle.¬† Who falls during the warmup??¬† This kid.¬† Maybe three steps into the sideways bit my mind checked out for a moment and I was staring up at the ceiling :p¬† Haven’t done THAT in a long time!¬† Was actually starting to think I could give crossfit a big HI-5 for helping me improve my coordination.¬† Wrong.¬† lol

Tuesday March 25

warm-up: 3 rounds – 5 pull-ups, 5 push-ups, 5 sit-ups, 5 squats

Every Minute on the minute for 14 Minutes:
Odd Minutes:
 AMRAP of 5- Burpees + 5-Thrusters #95/#65   5 strict press  #35 + 5 ring pulls
Even Minutes: Rest

Result – 17 rounds + 7 reps

Thrusters?¬† Goodie :p¬† Can you think of a movement that involves your hips more?¬† Nope.¬† Me either.¬† My scaling option had nothing¬†to do with the original WOD, but I really enjoyed it ūüôā¬† Kept the intensity level HIGH and rocked through the rounds.¬† My chest and I are not friends today after all the ring pulls.¬† Haha love it.

During the warm-up Coach Dave asked if I’ve been working on my pull-ups ūüôā¬† Busted.¬† I do work at my job, I swear to you…

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life’s a burpee

Ah… the Open. It can lift us up with finding new PRs, crushing a particular WOD, and the awesome in-house camaraderie. The last 4 weeks in CF Division have been filled with an intoxicating energy that has knit our community even tighter. ¬†We can learn of capabilities we didn’t know we had and push past barriers that believed existed previously. Yet sometimes what can raise you up can also throw you back down. Hard. Such is the burpee of life I guess. :p

I’m glad I signed up for this. ¬†It’s proven to be an even greater opportunity to learn more about my strengths and weakness than I ever could have imagined. I’m of course talking of both the mental and physical here. ¬†I’ve enjoyed some personal victories in getting a few double unders, my first chest to bar pull-up (followed by 7 more), and 31 toes to bar. ¬†But there’s also been some dark moments. One week to go, and while there has been a lot of fun times, I won’t deny the fact that I’m ready for it to be done. ¬†I’ve set some good benchmarks for myself to work to improve and to compare against again in time. However, I’m ready to crossfit just for the love of crossfit again.

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14.4 left me feeling defeated and disappointed in myself. In 14.1, I went in fully aware that the double unders would have my number. ¬†I fought hard, but the defeat was something I had somewhat mentally prepared myself for. ¬†14.4 was a different story. ¬†My goal in my mind had been to get to the cleans. The row went as planned, although it’s pretty tough to screw that up, but the toes to bar presented a far greater issue than I had given them credit for. I thought we were “tight and sh*t”. Wrong. I only needed 50, but in 10 minutes all I could make count was 31. ¬†And what felt like 100 “no reps”. Interesting moment for me, although this won’t make any sense to most, my awesome judge told me at one moment when my mind had all but given up “get MAD at the bar McDowell! ¬†MAKE IT COUNT!!!” With that comment, I no longer felt all alone on that stupid bar. I may have only gotten a few more legit reps before the time expired, but I gave it everything to do just that. ¬†To MAKE IT COUNT. ¬†Saturday I had a conversation with Coach Sharon that once again drove home just how amazing our coaches are. ¬†I shared my disappointment and her words of wisdom once again helped me snap out of it. ¬†“You have to have a thick skin to crossfit. ¬†There will always be something you need to work on and it’s usually a long list… ¬†You are too hard on yourself. ¬†You have nothing to prove.” ¬†She speaks the truth when I get so caught up in my head that I can’t see it for myself. ¬†Much appreciated.

For the first time in maybe, well ever… I chalked. I will most likely go back to avoiding the shtuff in the future. ¬†There have been maybe three times I’ve shredding my hands to the point of bloodshed. ¬†All of which have been times I’ve caved to the draw of the bucket of the messy white dust.

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Thankfully a friend pulled out her handy-dandy krazy glue (a crossfit essential I’ve learned) and stuck me back together after blood was washed away with a contained a yelp from the peroxide pour. ¬†Like I said, I never chalk, but Friday I was at the point of trying¬†anything¬†to get in my 50 reps. ¬†So chalk I did.

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Side note – I’m still hooked on turkey meatballs. ¬†Anytime you put fennel seeds with ground meat I’ve discovered you can’t really go wrong. ¬†This kinda looks like garbage, but it was sooo good ūüėÄ ¬†Meatballs, mushrooms, kale, and a handful of this kale salad mix. ¬†I’m a no-dressing kid. ¬†Weird, I know. ¬†But there was a little tomato sauce on my meatballs so that makes me a¬†little less of an oddball I think. ¬†Not sure why the pic was taken on my couch… ¬†Although I don’t really concern myself with logic when all I want to do is EAT what I’m photographing.

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bear with me

**Warning.  This post will contain complaining.  Not interested?  No worries.  Change the channel.  But they say, all is well that ends well and I promise this one will.

Being in pain sucks.¬† Whether it be from injury, old age, or disease, doesn’t matter.¬† It just sucks.¬† I don’t know if it has to do with the weather, or not enough sleep/water, or too many squats :p but¬†the pain in my right leg and foot has been brutal lately.¬† One of the frustrations is I can’t even really come up with an accurate way to describe it.¬† I do know that I am my most comfortable lying in a pool chair with no socks or shoes.¬† Or running.¬† That could just be because I’m too distracted to notice though :p But wearing shoes?¬† Arg.¬† Like, spend most of my day walking around my store with¬†in my old person socks cause even my super-loose birkenstock clogs¬†make it feel like there’s an elephant standing on my foot.¬† Pain is a part of life.¬† I get that.¬†¬†But a pain that never offers any relief¬†can make you a little crazy.¬† Or bitchy.¬† Or both.¬†¬†Pain meds do nothing.¬† I have a script for a form of morphine but it just makes me high, and still in pain.¬† One potential light at the end of the tunnel – my massage therapist has recommended more acupuncture.¬† Fingers crossed please.

On a good note, a fellow crossfitter¬†was asking me questions a while ago about whether I’ve found crossfit to provide any benefit towards my MS.¬† The answer to that is YES!¬† Coordination and balance are far better than they used to be.¬† One of the most frustrating things I have dealt with intermittently over the years is cognitive challenges.¬† Like, when you know what you want to say but your brain can’t seem to make your mouth produce the words.¬† I try not to complain when there’s pain involved cause at least it generally is something I can hide from the world.¬† When this sh*t messes with my mind, I feel exposed.¬† ALSO, where at one point I was seeing relapses every 6 months-1 year, I haven’t had any in more than 2 ūüėÄ

Okay, enough complaining.¬† I need to log some everyday crossfit details.¬† Here’s how the week started for moi:

Mon. Mar. 17

Part 1. 3 Rounds for time:
10- Power Cleans #135/#95    #75
10- Push Jerks #135/#95      #75

Part 2.¬† Thruster: Work up to a 5RM ‚Äď No racks.¬† No ‚Äúthrust-a-jerks‚ÄĚ ‚Äď must be a true thruster.

Monday I felt like garbage.¬† My body was tired. And sore.¬† Why??¬† The weekend was pretty non-stop, but the box was closed so I really don’t have an epic excuse.¬† That’s just how it was.¬† Warm-up was OTM¬†10 minutes of 7 wallballs¬†#14 and 3 burpees.¬† The ball felt stupid heavy right from the start.¬† Then power cleans were a hot mess.¬† Then very first push jerk made the room spin.¬† WTF?!¬† I haven’t been dizzy in ages.¬† I didn’t crush this workout by any means, but I didn’t give up either.

unless you puke, faint or die - KEEP GOING!!

unless you puke, faint or die – KEEP GOING!!

Tues. Mar. 18

Part 1. Every minute on the minute for 20 minutes:

Odd Minutes: 10- Hang Squat Cleans #115/#75   #65

Even Minutes: 3-6- Muscle-Ups  transitions

Part 2. Back Squats

Set 1 ‚Äď 5 reps @ 70%¬†¬† #85

Set 2 ‚Äď 3 reps @ 80%¬†¬†¬† #105

Set 3 ‚Äď 2 reps @ 85%¬†¬†¬† #125

Set 4 ‚Äď 1 rep @ 90%¬†¬†¬†¬† #135

Set 5 ‚Äď 10 reps @ 75%¬†¬†¬†¬† #95

Rest 2 minutes between sets

Part.1 Two sets, not for time, of:

2-3: Rope Climbs 30- 45 Seconds: L-Sits

Tuesday was a better day ūüôā¬† After a good night’s sleep and better water consumption, I was ready to kill this WOD.¬† Coach Jenna commented that my cleans are looking way better.¬† I would hope so after the crazy amount of ’em we’ve done lately!¬† If only it made my apartment cleaner…¬† Also, today was hang cleans.¬† Takes the “pull early” opportunity out of the mix.¬† Have no choice¬†but to use my hips to get that b*tch up!¬† The AMRAP was fun ūüôā¬† Then some heavier back squats which is something we haven’t done a whole lot of lately.¬† Then the cherry on top… rope climbs.¬† I like going up, just wish there was a big comfy pillow I could jump down on rather than trying to maneuver my way back to the ground without 3rd degree rope burn.¬† Yesterday, I made progress!!¬† I think it’s called the “J-hook”?¬† Where the object is to use one foot to kinda anchor the rope while the other controls your pace?¬† At first, all I could manage was either dead stop or break-neck fast, but things got better as I kept at it ūüôā¬† WIN.¬† And I like L-sits too.

Last note – Open WOD 14.4 to be announced tomorrow.¬† I’m still nervous/excited, but have¬†found a little more comfort in knowing I’m certainly not alone.¬† I’m no where¬†near one of the more competitive females out there, or even at CF Division, but I’m still putting everything I’ve got into every workout and happy with the progress and PR’s I’ve seen so far.¬† Read an article which spoke of 14.1 and 14.2 and how some athletes were looking for great scores while others were looking to see their first rep of a new movement.¬† It’s simple (as Coach Dave often says) but I thought it put things into perspective.¬† If you feel like it, read this:

http://www.boxlifemagazine.com/community/the-design-of-the-open-wods-find-your-limits-then-go-beyond-them

home stretch

So, I’ve all but made it!¬† In the home stretch of my crazy weekend and still going.¬† This helped, no question:

XLcoffeekickOk… if there was any sort of photo editing software on my work PC, I would have cropped out the crap in the background and focused on the MASSIVE jug of caffinated goodness.¬† I have never ordered myself an XL coffee, but when a staff memeber brought it for me today… I was thrilled!¬† Also, they decided to gut the gas station in my parking lot and the Timmies will be closed for a MONTH!¬† I may need a leave of absence :p

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Yesterday’s Henry’s/Sport Chek double header thankfully went well.¬† I think my head hit the pillow last night around 11!¬† That’s gotta be a new record!¬† We lucked out with a good counting crew and found few errors.¬† I got to carry a gun most of the evening (a scanning gun, but if I didn’t share that bit it would have sounded cooler) until rescans were done anyway.¬† Snuck away from the chaos for a minute to chow the last of my meatball stash :p

meatballsWas super careful not to get a spec of food on my edit lists.  Jarka-mel (the barer of the map highlighter) would have killed me!

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There is currently a pork shoulder defrosting to climb into the crock pot tonight.¬† Mmmm…

Hockey this morning didn’t go so well.¬† First game of playoffs, and with a goal scored by the other team with 6 seconds left, playoffs are over for “breaking balls”.¬† You can laugh, I didn’t come up with that.¬† Boys.¬† Although, the team that beat us were the “rubber puckies”, so I feel a little better about our name.¬† Ok.¬†¬†Before my 14.3 efforts on Friday I had watched a YouTube video about box jump technique and strategies to help get all stretched and ready to roll.¬† One of which included rolling¬†your lower legs (from¬†just above the ankle to about half way up your calf ish) on a barbell.¬† Tried it out and I¬†will say my flexibility was better afterwards.¬† However, this morning when I went for my first sprint down the floor at hockey… my ankles and heels were killing me!¬† What the?!¬† Maybe from jumping off shelving¬†last night at Chek, but also maybe from the “stretching”?¬† Other than that, my lower back was a bit sore post-14.3, but nothing major.

Anyone else sore from 14.3?

 

get a grip

Quick recap in a moment of calm during the storm.

Workout 14.3

WOMEN – includes Masters Women up to 54 years old
Complete as many reps as possible in 8 minutes of:
95-lb. deadlifts, 10 reps
15 box jumps, 20-inch
135-lb. deadlifts, 15 reps
15 box jumps, 20-inch
155-lb. deadlifts, 20 reps
15 box jumps, 20-inch
185-lb. deadlifts, 25 reps
15 box jumps, 20-inch
205-lb. deadlifts, 30 reps
15 box jumps, 20-inch
225-lb. deadlifts, 35 reps
15 box jumps, 20-inch

Crossfit Games Open for the first time… here’s my thoughts so far:

14.1 – I wish¬†I could have done better.¬† But wishing won’t get double unders for me, so practice I will.

14.2 РI know I could have done better.  A good lesson in heading into each WOD with a strategy.

14.3 – I¬†DID my BEST!¬† No regrets with this one. ¬†I gained a better appreciation of the benefit of mixed grip when the weight gets heavy!¬† Tried a deadlift with strict grip (if that’s what you’d call it) and just… couldn’t… hold… on!!¬† “NO REP!” has got to be one of the worst things anyone can ever say to you :p¬† No hard feelings Coach Sharon ūüėČ

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STILL – Very happy with my 95 reps ūüėĬ†A box mate asked after I finished “what’s your 1RM¬†deadlift?”¬† “#225” I responded.¬† “Not anymore!!” he said!¬† This may be true ūüôā

Anyone else find that this WOD completely kicked their BUTT??¬† I was yawning incessantly¬†while cheering on my CFD family, and falling asleep on my couch before 8:30.¬† Also, frozen solid.¬† Crawled into bed in socks, pj pants, a t-shirt and a hoodie!¬† Say what??¬† Strange.¬† Thankfully after a solid 9 hours of sleep I woke up feeling my usual awesome self ūüôā

Downside to my post-WOD uselessness – didn’t cook anything for my Henry’s/Sport Chek double header today.¬† So breakfast was the usual egg whites &¬†sweet potato, but lunch is meatballs w/salad, dinner is meatballs with eggplant, and if I need a snack?¬† A meatball?¬† Can you tell what was the only protein I had left in my fridge?¬† Here’s hoping inventory doesn’t run till tomorrow… I don’t have enough meatballs for that.

 

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