They say, It’s always darkest before the dawn. Well, I’ve kept dormant in terms of blogging over the last few days as there was a whole lot of negativity bouncing around in my head that I really didn’t feel like releasing out into the world. This is a little excerpt which I drafted Wednesday which helped me realize how crazy I was being:
Sometimes all the determination in the world just isn’t enough. After all the hours I put in trying as hard as I could to get the rope to turn faster and harder, to jump higher… It wasn’t enough. I was happy that I got 6 reps cause 6 is better than zero, but had to discontinue my mission to catch up on the reading of my fellow bloggers’ posts about their 14.1 awesomeness. I’m not being a brat, I am genuinely happy for all those who worked hard and were successful. It’s just that I set the bar really high for my own performance…
I mentioned this to a very few and the response was basically “don’t be silly!” I wasn’t. I was being honest. You see, the “cloud 9” I rode into last Saturday on vanished and I crashed back to reality pretty hard. Thankfully in the process of getting my head back on track, a friend made a comment that stuck with me:
The funny thing is that it’s only you against you, no one else!
Eloquently put 🙂 and exactly what I needed to hear. It’s an important lesson to learn, no doubt, but it can be one of the hardest.
Last night 14.2 was announced. I did the briefest of happy dances in my mind at seeing NO double unders 🙂 but then realized what I was reading was still nothing short of crazy hard. Regardless, I’m stoked to give the Open another shot.
Another happy note (which is proving a little bittersweet today as my quads are still angry) is Wednesday’s WOD was AWESOME! My fellow fitness and food junkie from work is getting into crossfit and came to his first workout Wednesday as well. It was brutal and I LOVED it 🙂 One good thing I’ve gotten from my days of being disappointed in my 14.1 result is a determination to prove to myself that I DO deserve to be a part of the amazing community at CFD by giving EVERYTHING to every other workout that comes our way. Wednesday was the perfect opportunity:
Part 1. OTM, 7 minutes:
– 7 toes to bar
– 7 box jumps, 20″
Part 2. For Time:
10 Rounds of “Cindy”
30- Front Squats #185/#135 #75
10 Rounds of “Cindy”
*”Cindy”= 5 Pullups/10 Pushups/ 15 Air Squats* *pull-ups scaled to ring pulls
Part 3. 10-20 Minutes Recovery on the C2 Rower
Coach Dave put a 25 minute time cap on part 2 to prevent this one from going all night. I finished in 24:00 🙂 and made my way to the white board on very wobbly legs to record my time. A WOD like this one was exactly what my mind needed to get back to the positive side of things. Even the complaints I received from my quads yesterday while climbing the stockroom shelves at Sport Chek brought a huge smile to my face 😀 That’s right! That WOD sucked. BUT I DID IT 🙂
Went in this morning for my fav. class of the week 🙂 Although, the Friday coffee ritual which we have created does take away from the Coach Dave’s attempted hijacking of Coach Sharon’s classes… That was part of the entertainment! Didn’t workout this time though, just went for some mobilizing and some tips/practice for later. Doing my 14.2 today around 4:00pm. Wish me luck! To all my blog “friends” also completing the Open, I wish the best of luck to you as well!