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Archive for April, 2016

when all else fails

Well, I guess the sh*t hit the fan.  I’ll back-fill a bit briefly before the actual rant begins… January I decided I was DONE with Tecfidera.  Couldn’t live with the side effects any more and unhappy with the fact that the nerve pain still followed me around every day of my life.  So I stopped.  Just like that I was done, cold turkey.  Doctor’s don’t recommend that, but I didn’t care.  I mean, I do everything in my power to help my body fight this disease on its own, so I wanted to see if that was enough.  I eat really clean, I exercise regularly, get lots of sleep, drink lots of water, take all the vitamins and supplements they recommend… so I should be good.  My recent visit to my MS doc brought up a comment of “you’re going to live forever!!” when he took my blood pressure.  And for half of January, all of February (even with 29 days!) and much of March, life was grand.  I no longer felt fluish every day.  I no longer had to hide in the office several times a week to ride out a flushing attack.  I was sleeping fantastic and had plenty of energy.  I felt “normal” again.  Till mid-way through the Open when my hands and everything below my knees went numb.  Functional, but without feeling.  Believe me, I had a few moments of thinking “oh shit!  What have I done?!”, but carried on.  First relapse in more than 3 years, but not like I haven’t been trough these before and this one was pretty mild.  Lasted for a little over 2 weeks then I started to regain feeling.  Cool!  Piece of cake!  Except a few days later I had a rough day.  The every day nerve pain was amplified.  It was a long day at work cause we had a staff meeting at the end of the day, so 13 hours straight in my store.  My wonderful girlfriend drove out to give me a hug cause she knew I was feeling rough.  🙂  A moment of smiles at least!  I fought through it and the next day things felt a bit better.  The day after that, better still.  That tough day was last Wednesday.  Yesterday, was another tough day less than a week later.  Tougher than I’ve had in a long time…  The pain was so bad I fought of feeling like I was going to barf all day long.  Stoned on pain meds I at least managed to sleep and woke up today feeling a bit better.  Ok, it’s progress.  Went to the box this morning, cause that’s just what i do and scaled the sh*t out of the workout.  Sucked a little cause it was heavy squats and I like heavy squats, but let me put things into perspective – If someone had been able to promise me yesterday that I would never have to deal with the nerve pain again if I would give up crossfit, I wouldn’t have given it a second thought.  And I LOVE CROSSFIT.  No one can tell what causes this nightmare, or even how to prevent it… but I’m going out on a limb maybe and guessing that heavy lifting doesn’t help.  😦  I’m not doing a very good job right now of pleading my case to live without the daily injections which have been once again suggested…

making sense of it all

Sometimes inspiration comes at the most inopportune time… I’m pretty sure I’ve written some great blog-worthy material in my mind recently while driving or on the treadmill.  I’m not at all lost right now, but I AM going through the process of putting all the new pieces into my world and trying to figure out how they all fit.  Spending time with my chick is pretty high on the priority list.  And practicing guitar cause I get heckled slightly when I can’t keep up.  All good fun!  Loving it.  Still trying to redesign my nutrition routine to not throw away so much food since I’m not home nearly as much.  I ate a chicken breast yesterday even though I wasn’t entirely sure when I cooked it.  I didn’t die, so I guess it was ok.  And feels like the water component has gone completely off the deep end.  Pretty sure I’m pretty dehydrated 99% of the time but I’m trying to fix that.  My legs tell me it’s worth the effort.


Ball hockey started this past Friday in Hamilton.  Co-ed 3 on 3, similar to the hockey I played two winters ago at Laurier.  Good times with a very entertaining group, and a good little warm-up for Acton ball hockey in the big arena which starts Sunday I think.  Also trying to get into a rhythm of sharing my time between running and crossfit.  Up till now I’ve pretty much just added the running, but I’m not sure that’s sustainable.  Time will tell I guess!  The running is intended to serve multiple purposes, so I guess time will tell if that proves effective as well.  First – hockey needs running.  Second – want to run some races with speedy Amanda this summer.  Third – I was invited to a slip and slide party and want to look hot in a bikini.  So, the third reason is probably the main reason but all are important.  Who doesn’t want to look good in minimal clothing when the summer is approaching though?


I’m not sure if Coach Dave has given this little training phase we are starting a name, but if today is any indication it’s going to be nasty.  The names I came up with aren’t really posting appropriate either.  This week’s little side challenge is right up my alley though!  Last week was 100 push-ups, the last 25 of which I roped DK into completing with me at work.  This week is accumulate 2 minutes of handstand holds every day.  Crushed it today in 3 sets that should have been 2.  45 second, then 1:05, then 10 seconds to wrap it up.  Tried hard to make the 1:05 1:15, but when the ground starts creeping itself closer to your head I usually take that as a hint to bail.  It’ll come!


Mon. Apr. 11:

Part 1. OTM for 20:00 Minutes
Odd: Row Calories 20/15  12
Even: 15– Burpees  12
Part 2. For Time: 30- Squat Clean and Jerks #155/#105  #85

Time – 7:59

Sounds simple, right?  Part 1 was tedious and sweaty.  Oh wait, so was part 2.  Tedious, sweaty and HEAVY.  I know, 85 isn’t that heavy… but it was today.  Air squats felt heavy today after my brilliance yesterday.

Sun. Apr. 10:

For time:
100- Air Squats*
5- Muscle-ups (transitions)
75- Air Squats*
10- Muscle-ups (transitions)
50- Air Squats*
15- Muscle-ups (transitions)
25- Air Squats*
20- Muscle-ups (transitions)

*air squats wearing weighted vest

Time – 20:34

I don’t even know if the weighted vest part was by design in this workout, but when I looked over and another athlete was wearing one it seemed like a great idea.  20 reps in, I second-guessed that decision.  Later when I headed for my Sunday run after work, I realized my legs were pretty angry about it lol.  After at least 10 minutes of considering giving up,  I got it together and had a decent run.

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