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Recalculating route…


So, I’ve spent the last week trying to draft in my mind the post I was going to write about why I was NOT doing the Open this year. There were, and still are, a few BIG factors that led me to that decision, although even to myself they just felt like excuses. Trying to reduce the amount of stress in my life is a big one, which I know a lot of people can relate to. Here’s the new part – this is the first time I would compete without the symptoms I’ve carried around for years. Without the foggy brain. Without the nerve pain in my legs. Without numbness or coordination issues. Without incredible fatigue! From the outside that probably sounds AMAZING, but for me it felt like I was about to sign up for my first Open all over again and with less understanding of how my body was going to react. With everyone watching. Don’t get me wrong, I’m over the moon excited with the transformation I’ve experienced in my brain and body since I started drinking ketones nearly a year ago, but it’s still a process and always will be. The fears and challenges I had in other years (like 17.1 with all those burpee box jump overs when I had no feeling in my legs) are GONE, but I’m still working to learn how the new and improved version of myself works 🙂 I learned the hard way last weekend that dehydrated and mineral depleted was bad news for me going into a sweat fest of a workout. Noted, and I won’t make that mistake again 😉 Anyways, as I’m sure you could guess from the picture, yesterday I stepped out of my comfort zone and joined the party. 18.2 was challenging, but without the added stress of my old systems. I’m getting used to the feeling of being a better version of me. I feel almost “normal” 😁 (keep your comments to yourself on that one 🤪) and I look forward to continuing the process and helping others do the same. #bestself #bebetter #pruviteveryday #dontgiveuponyou #intheopen #ketones #ketoOS #doublevisionphotography82 #multiplesclerosis #autoimmune

weekend re-cap

What a great weekend 🙂  I crammed a ton into my two days, as always, but had a good time doing it.

marketSaturday I got up bright and early (as always) and went to the local farmer’s market where I picked up some fresh veggies, took some random pics and people watched to my heart’s content.  I have a co-worker who likes to travel to Montreal from time to time and raves about the bagels you can get there.  When I saw a booth in the market building that claimed to carry authentic Montreal bagels, I sent him a pic as a joke.  I didn’t even consider at the time that not the whole world is up at 7 am on a Saturday…  Oops!

I just wanted to beat the crowds…

Also needed something to keep my mind occupied so I would stop wondering what workout was in store for the day.  Weekends are TBA.  I had that confirmed for me by Sunday.  Saturday’s WOD at 10am was ok.  Didn’t have the “That was AWESOME!!” feeling I usually have I don’t think though.  It was an OTM style workout, but every 2 minutes instead of every 1.  3 – wallballs, 5 – power cleans, 7 – burpees.  My power cleans felt GREAT, but otherwise it was ok.  Saturday evening hung out with a friend and went to the driving range / bating cage.  I sucked :p.  At both.  But with equal level of sucky-ness right handed and left.  At least I’m consistent.

box2Sunday was back at the box for another 10am WOD.  This time I can definitely say…. That was AWESOME!  Started with 20 consecutive back squats.  That was not the awesome part.  That was just hard.  :p  Then we were paired up to complete:

15 rounds “Cindy”

– 3 pull-ups, 6 push-ups, 9 squats

50 front squats

15 more rounds “Cindy

– 3 pull-ups, 6 push-ups, 9 squats

It was wicked fun and hard at the same time, but the team challenges I swear my mind just shuts out any doubt or possibility of wimping out.  Sh*t yo!  Breaking things down, I completed 45 pull-ups, 90 push-ups & 135 air squats.  PLUS 25 front squats, and the initial 20 back squats.  No wonder I was completely exhausted after this one.  And hungry enough to eat everything in my fridge…

happy friday!!

Today, I redeemed myself 🙂  Went to a 7:30 WOD and all I can say, now that it’s all done and over with… That, was AWESOME!!!  😀  Man was I ever thankful that it had nothing to do with the rope though.  My hands and leg are still sore and healing from yesterday.

burntFor today, we crammed a LOT into the hour!  Started with 8 rounds OTM, 4 reps back squats @ 75-80% of our 1 rep max.  I don’t have record of what my 1 rep max is yet (like, for anything), so I picked something that I felt would be challenging – 75lbs.  I thought to myself, I maybe could have handled 85lbs, but when it came to the last round and the ante was upped to “max reps”, 75lbs was good!  Then we got to play with box jumps 🙂  seated max height box jumps.  A new love!  I nailed a few reps the 24″ box height, with 2x 10lb plates stacked on top.  Didn’t have a measuring tape in my purse, so I’m not sure exactly how high that was.  (aside – if you don’t know me, the thought of me with a purse would leave anyone who does rolling on the floor laughing)  I do know that one more roll of the box, to the 30″ height, was the breaking point for my mind…  I hate when it quits on me before I’ve even tried…  I got over it, cause next we got in to our actual WOD – 10 rounds AMRAP:

30 sec – box jumps (20″)

30 sec – kettle bell swings (35lb)

30 sec – rest

Total reps – 255

Holy crap!  Intense!  But awesome 😀  And I didn’t even lose count.  That in itself can be harder than the workout itself…  Don’t judge me :p

One thing I really appreciate about crossfit (among a million others) is I’m really learning to not shy away from things that seem hard or daunting either physically, or even mentally.  When I couldn’t get my head on track with the 30″ box, I didn’t give up… the 24″ w/2 plates was really not that much smaller, but it was a way of working around the barriers I had faced and succeeding anyway.  Small victories can be just as important as big ones… 😀

I’m feeling “bloggy” today, so I’ll toss a Paleo note in here as well.  Two days ago I decided to make this fun sounding recipe from Pinterest.  “Spaghetti squash crusted Quiche”.  Sounds good, right?  I should premise this a little… I’m a smart kid, but man do I have dumb moments at times!  Thankfully, I manage to keep most of my not-so-smart thoughts in my head…  Anyways, Quiche.  So I pressed the cooked spaghetti squash into the pie plate, filled the “crust” with some mushroom, onion, broccoli, and bacon, then poured in the egg whites and popped the whole thing in the oven.  After about 30 minutes (I think), the Quiche was set and my apartment smelled yummy.  The dumb moment – I cut the first piece and thought to myself “hey!  where did my crust go?!?”  Hey genius…  there was nothing in there to hold the crust together, so the squash essentially just made the whole thing kinda mushy.  Long story, but I don’t recommend this bad boy.  Skip the squash all together…  The little muffin tray egg cups I usually make are more flavorful anyway.

Paleo vs. the flu

Yup, bad news.  What are the most common things to turn to when trying to get over the flu?  Chicken noodle soup and crackers.  Paleo?  No, and definitely not.  Great.  Wednesday morning I woke up feeling incredibly weak, run down, and sweating like crazy.  And that was just the start.  Spent the day either sleeping, or practically crawling from my bed to the washroom to bow to the mighty porcelain thrown.  Throwing up sucks.  Not as much as dry-heaving, but yeah…  Only happy note from the whole experience, my jeans fit great again 😀

Enough of that lovely conversation.  Two days later I AM feeling considerably better, but still weaker than I’d like to be considering tonight is the start of a little hockey marathon.  Tournament tonight, tomorrow and possibly Sunday (if my team manages to squeak through by some random act of god).  Then regular Acton league game Sunday night.  Then Championships for my other league Monday night.  By Tues, I should be dead if I can’t come up with a means of building my energy back up again :p  Ah well, here’s to trying…

pain and pleasure

I suck, I know!  I’m not generally one to make excuses, but here comes a big one.  I haven’t been blogging cause the pain in my leg has been SO bad lately.  To the point I have given up on my stubbornness towards taking something for the pain some nights…  The morphine numbs the pain, but it also numbs my brain.  Not a huge fan of that, but sometimes there’s only so much one person can take.  As for the blog drought, sitting at my computer is agony.  Don’t get me wrong, I feel bad.  😦  And there has been lots I have wanted to write about!  My 100 day challenge ended Sunday.  I will be taking some “after” photos in the next few days, but will have to try to get ahold of “before” pics from my trainer.  This smart guy didn’t take any.  Awesome.  :p  Not really sure they will show a whole lot of a difference, but I KNOW I do feel stronger!  Yesterday I was supposed to meet a coworker at the gym.  I had planned 2 hours of gym time into my day to fit in my workout, and help her out as well.  When she didn’t show up, I was SO excited!  Two hours to do nothing but kick MY a**?!?!  Right on!  😀  So I did!  It’s crazy really, when it comes to physical activity, my leg is FINE.  Also the part of the day when I am completely happy 🙂

Wanna talk HAPPY??  Let me talk about accomplishments for a minute.  😀  Box jumps.  I can do them physically, but my head prevents me from doing them well sometimes.  Some days I stand in front of the box and we just connect.  I spring up onto it like it’s nothing!  Other days though, my head tells me I can’t do it before I’ve even tried.  It’s usually those days that I smash my shins.  Why is it our subconscious can sometimes set us up for failure?  Anyways, enough of that.  Yesterday I had one of my best leg workouts to date, which included 40 brilliant box jumps.  That’s right 😉 


One more accomplishment I’m proud of is chest dips.  When I started my 100 day challenge back in January, I was barely able to perform one quality chest dip.  Since all the workouts in my current program involve 4 sets of each exercise, I have worked HARD to build up my performance with these.  I was happy with the progress I was making… had built up to 4 sets with 5, 4, 4, 3 reps consecutively.  Then today, something was different.  I don’t totally know what happened, but chest dips and I became best friends for a moment.  🙂   It was the weirdest thing… I felt like I weighed nothing for a moment or two!  Very strange, but I’ll take it!

The last two weeks (ish) I’ve not felt my usual strength through my workouts.  My mind was telling my arms/legs to LIFT, but they were not so willing to oblige.  I just figured I was over training and needed a bit of a break.  While this may have been the case, I also decided to switch back from banana pancake breakfasts to my old routine of 1/2 a baked sweet potato mixed with a dash of cinnamon and a scoop of protein powder.  I figured that adding a little extra carbs back into my life might be just what I needed to get things back in gear.  After two days of incredible workouts, I’m getting the feeling I may have been right!

Strong kicks skinny

Ok, if you’ve read my blog at all before this point, you already know that “legs” is my favourite workout by far.  I look forward to “legs” day every week… but the day after is often one I dread 😦  Ever have one of those days where you contemplate throwing in the towel completely?  The reason I hate the day after legs day, which sometimes turns into a multi-day hatred, is NOT because I’m sore or stiff (LOVE that part!).  Not because walking up the stairs at work is sometimes a real challenge (LOVE that part too!).  It’s because I HATE when I put on a pair of jeans and feel like my quads are sn’aussaged in!  Sn’aussage should be a word… it fits when the pants don’t.  I should be happy, I know.  I’m getting wicked strong quads and hammys, but… ya. 

Let me ramble about the pressures society places on females for a moment.  I may be gay, but I’m still a girl.  Part of the reason for this rant comes from a comment made yesterday at my gym from an older gentleman who suggested that I shouldn’t be lifting the weight that I am.  “Girls meant to lift like that…”  Was mumbled as he walked away.  REALLY?!?!  I would love to take this as a sign that he was impressed with my strength, but that’s not the way it came out.  Take a look in a magazine for a second, and I’m not talking Oxygen or anything body-building related.  They get it.  Every where you look the media portrays the female “ideal” as a skinny, scrawny stick figure who barely has the strength to lift her mucho-grande-non-fat-no-taste latte to her lips.  A while ago, I saw a bunch of ads out there promoting a shift in this mentality that were inspiring in my mind.


strong-is-the-new-skinnyI totally agree!  Girls who buy into this mentality can be a force to be reckoned with!  Strong bodies and healthy lifestyles should never be anything to be ashamed of.  hypocrite?  Yes, maybe…  I never find myself ashamed or embarrassed that I can crush 4 sets of squats with 135lbs rested on my shoulders.  That’s right!  🙂  Personal best yesterday!  AND I do get over the tight jeans eventually.  I also don’t complain about it in public :p  That’s what blogging is for…

rock on 365

Today is a day to celebrate 🙂 Today is my one year anniversary since i made the decision to give this whole Paleo thing a “30 day trial”.  Now one year later I’m still living it up!  I’ve learned to really enjoy the food I put in my body and make the right choices to fuel me through my crazy life.  While it hasn’t been a miracle cure, I have noticed a difference in the consistency of energy levels throughout my day.  As someone living with MS, this has been a huge victory in my mind!  iPhone I first started this journey, I used to celebrate every month as an anniversary of success.  While I’m a little beyond that now, the one year mark is still a big accomplishment for me 🙂 if I put my mind to something, I CAN succeed. Disease or no disease, I am a fighter.

Friday was one of those long slow days at work where all I could think about was how much I’d rather have spent the whole day sweatin’ it hard-core at the gym.  Got out early  and ROCKED a stellar 30 minute run and 60 minutes of heavy lifting.  😀  It was “leg day” which tends to have me jumping out the door eager to go lift the big sh*t.  My fav. part I think is still when the dude gets on the machine after me and has to do a double take to look at who was lifting that.  Hahaha…  I may not look like much, but one woman  a few weeks ago said to her friend “she’s a TANK” and I just giggled.  That’s right.  I can pound out 4 sets of v-squats with 215lbs stacked on the machine.

Saturday was inventory night at my part-time job.   It was a sh*t storm, but at least it’s over!

fork in the road…

March 19 – early morning:

Confusion has set in for me a bit right now.  Today is day 67 of the 100 day transformation.  It’s also a month until the start of summer ball hockey.  Summer ball hockey is a LOT different from winter ball hockey cause we shift to playing on a full-size arena.  To stick to the plan my trainer gave me for the 100 day thing would mean to keep away from the treadmill as much as possible.  Something I already have cheated on several times… BUT to start a hockey season without the endurance I am used to having, I might die.  Or barf.  I’m not into that…  I mentioned before that I was considering venting a little of my frustration and disappointment with this 100 day thing anyway.  FIrst off, I guess I should be mad at myself for not taking the time to think things through and do a little research before handing over the $$.  The gym is about 40 minutes away.  It’s winter and I live in Canada, which means the driving conditions can be sketch.  And I already have a gym membership at a club that is on my way to work.  My thought process was: I can take the workout routine I get and just use it at my home club.  Yes, this is true, but the amount of $$$ isn’t really justified when all that I got out of it was 6 personal training sessions and a workout plan.  I wasn’t really bothered by that considering it was MY choice to not go workout at their gym, but when I was wandering around aimlessly on facebook the other day, I realized there WAS a lot more being offered which I was completely missing out on.  There are group bootcamp sessions 4 times per week.  There is a little “community” of people working together to achieve their goals.  There have been check-in sessions and weigh-in sessions that I was completely unaware of.  Thanks facebook :p leaning this stuff made me feel jaded…

So now I have a decision to make.  Do I continue to push forward on my own to try to achieve the muscle-building goals I set for myself?  I will admit, I DO notice a big difference in my strength, but at the cost of a lot of other things.  I used to be able to pound out chin-ups like they were childs play.  I used to be proud of my stamina and endurance at hockey.  The personal little challenges I set for myself up until this point were never ones that took away from the fitness side of life that I already had…  OR, the other side of the coin.  Do I jump back into running a few times per week and cut back a bit on the weight lifting?  Sigh…


March 19: evening:

So, the dust settled after my morning rant and I dragged myself to the gym after work.  Still not sure which way I’m going, but I hopped on the treadmill for a 5km run.  For the first time in a looooong time, I had to fight to keep running!  Pretty much every step of the way…  I hated that :p  Running has always been the easy part.  After my battle on the treadmill, I crushed out a modified chest routine.  Despite the heavy weights, this felt like a walk in the park compared to the treadmill!  Yet another reason I tend to do cardio at the beginning of a workout :p  For now anyways, I think that’s my plan.  Keep the weight lighting a constant, but build my cardio back up at the same time.  I know the extra calorie burn will take away from my muscle-building goals (unless I’m eating like crazy!) but I think I would rather not die at hockey than get all Arnold at the moment…

blood, sweat and tears have got me here...  dedication will let me stay...

blood, sweat and tears got me here… dedication will let me stay…

Facing fears

Since beginning my 100 day challenge, it’s been no secret which workouts I like/dislike.  After injuring myself when I got home from vacay, I’ve had even more reason to avoid some of the workouts I already wasn’t a fan of.  Today was a day of “‘eff it!”  I sucked it up and jumped into a kick-ass back routine.  Probably my least fav., but today I was just in the right frame of mind for ANYTHING.  :p  Decided to throw some chest dips into the mix too, just cause the love/hate relationship I have with those is pretty intoxicating at times…  My chest is going to be deliciously sore tomorrow!  lol

Why am I so gullible?  I think it’s hereditary.  My mom is even worse!  Anyway, a coworker sent me something that talks about raw food and ya-da… part of it mentions that you should drink 2 litres of water in the first 30min of getting out of bed in the morning.  WHAT?!?!  I know, right?  But I’m a sucker, so today I tried it just for fun.  Only got to 1.5 litres, but actually didn’t feel like as much of a blow fish as I had expected…  When someone tells me it can’t be done, I’ll probably try to prove them wrong.  When I tell myself it can’t be done, I will DEFINITELY try to prove me wrong!  Freak.

Yesterday was potluck day at my store 🙂  I was lazy… 

sweet potato brownies

sweet potato brownies

Food, gym, food…

People just don’t get it sometimes…  Just because I am no longer “in a relationship” doesn’t mean I’m suddenly fair game…  While I’ve stopped looking for the ring that used to sit on my ring finger, my heart hasn’t forgotten just yet.  I’m not looking to find anyone other than myself right now.  Could sometimes just use a friend…

I got out of bed first thing this morning and headed straight to my kitchen to make miracles.  Ok, I consider them miracles in the form of a new version of meatloaf muffins.  After last night, when I got home and realized I had nothing stashed in my fridge and ended up eating a bowl of steamed Brussels sprouts and broccoli for dinner.  Anyway, the meatloaf is so ridiculously tasty and easy… just 2lbs ground turkey, a cup of salsa, 5 cloves garlic, grated fresh ginger, finely grated carrot, an egg and black pepper.  Mmmm…  I learned a pretty important life lesson during my early morning cook-fest.  Taking the turkey out of the deep freezer and into the fridge the night before is NOT adequate.  I’m pretty sure I gave my hands 3rd degree frostbite when trying to make the bastards.  Does that even exist?  Hmmm…

I did have a good workout this morning.  🙂  First time I’ve pushed myself after breaking myself last week.  It felt great to be back at it.  Unfortunately I ended my workout a bit sooner than I was planning though cause these 3 people really seemed to be stalking me around the gym and smelled really bad.  :s  When the one guy approached me as I was finishing my 3rd set on the leg press machine to ask how many reps I had left I was annoyed enough that I did my fourth set and called it a day.  Rude.

Oh my… I just realized I still have some Brussels in my fridge!  Happy day! 


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