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Back in the game

Order is restored in my world a bit… I finally feel I can call myself a crossfitter again ūüėÄ For now anyways, I’ve been WODing 2-3 times per week and I’m back to the regular routine of something-is-sore every day pretty much. My hands aren’t overly excited about all the pull-up bar and rope climb abuse from this week, but that’ll get better. I don’t feel like a newb anymore ūüėČ ¬†Although… Tuesday I felt like I had never climbed a rope in my life but my 165lb back squat went up quite easy. ¬†PR is coming for that one soon! ¬†Baby steps.

Wed. May 3:

BUY IN – Big Clean Complex
Every 4 minutes for 20 minutes complete:
1 High Hang Squat Clean
1 Hang Squat Clean
1 Squat Clean
1 Push Jerk
1 Hang Squat Clean
1 Squat Clean
1 Push Press
1 Hang Squat Clean
1 Squat Clean
1 Split Jerk
*Increase weight each round –¬†55, 75, 80, 85, 90

WOD –¬†
For time:
Overhead Squats 65lbs
Time – 8:38 Rx

Tues. May 2:

BUY IN –¬†Squat Wave
Every 2 minutes complete:
3 Back Squats @ 80% 1RM  145lbs
1 Back Squat @ 85% 1RM  155lbs
3 Back Squats @ 80% 1RM  145lbs
1 Back Squat @ 88% 1RM  160lbs
3 Back Squats @ 80% 1RM  145lbs
1 Back Squat @ 91% 1RM  165lbs

WOD –¬†
For time:
Kettlebell lunges (per leg)  16kg
Rope Climbs
Time –¬†12:40¬†Rx

Wahls Protocol

If there’s any interest… my Wahls Diary will be on this blog:¬†

IMG_4290We¬†survived Festivus Games his past weekend ūüôā Amanda as a competitor and myself as photographer. Still digging myself out after more than 1,500 images were captured, but I’m excited to share these soon! Only a handful of the 130 competitors were from CFC and while it was kinda nice to shoot some different people, I’m always most concerned with capturing “family”. Especially when things are crazy intense like they were at this one with 14 lanes per heat!


This is one of those posts I was torn on which blog to write it under… it follows the crossfit/nutrition path I often follow with this one, but will have a large amount of MS content as well. ¬†Anyways, it’s happening after quite some time bouncing around in my head.

2017 seems to be a year of “Full Circle” with me. ¬†What I originally saw as full circle in terms of going from working at Sport Chek in Milton in 2005 to Henry’s and right back to Sport Chek in Milton in 2016 wasn’t even the whole picture. ¬†Before Chek I was a professional photographer, and now I’m getting back into that scene as well ūüôā ¬†Not the same format however, but once again shooting something I’m passionate about. ¬†It’s a whole different game now though, but exciting none the less!

Another full circle journey is my attempt to improve my life with my disease through nutrition and exercise. ¬†I’ll come back to the exercise topic in a minute, but for now lets talk nutrition. ¬†In 2012 I stumbled upon this:¬†Dr. Terry Wahls – Minding Your Mitochondria¬†and I was curious. ¬†In 2012 I wasn’t in a good place with my mind and my health and I needed to try¬†something, so I gave it a shot. ¬†Cut dairy and grains from my diet and figured that was enough¬†and don’t get me wrong, it¬†did make a difference! ¬†I was able to eliminate a drug I was taking just to stay awake as my energy improved and combined with exercise and just being overall fed-up with conventional medicine and the downward spiral it seemed to cause in terms of my quality of life, I eventually eliminated drugs all together. ¬†That’s where I stand now. ¬†A little over a year drug-free, but I still deal with the effects of my disease every day and would like to see if I can take things further to improve that. ¬†I’ve done some of my own research lately and learned that relapsing-remitting MS typically transitions into secondary-progressive over time. ¬†My relapses have certainly tapered off, either through my own influence with diet and exercise or simply as a progression of the disease, but the pain is still something I live with 24/7. ¬†It used to be occasionally almost unbearable in intensity, but now it gets to that point pretty much every week and some days I just sort of crack emotionally. ¬†Not something I’m proud of, but some days I just can’t be strong anymore. ¬†Bright side – I have a massively supportive girlfriend who will be there for me every step of the way. ¬†I came home last week and Dr. Wahls’ book The Wahls Protocol was waiting for me on the counter ūüôā ¬†Inspiration take 2! ¬†This book is absolutely awesome! ¬†So many of the things she mentions have me staring wide-eyed like “oh my god! ¬†That’s ME!” ¬†And you know it’s true love when your girl says “I’d try liver if it will help you” ‚̧ ¬†Liver! ¬†GAG!!! ¬†I’m weird about the odd bits you find in a boneless-skinless chicken breast! ¬†But if it helps with the pain, I’ll give it a try.

Another part of my spring re-vamp involves the crossfit routine. ¬†I took Coach Jen’s advice a few months ago and scaled back the WODs while introducing some lifting days back into my world. ¬†Between the Open and helping Amanda prepare for the Festivus comp, the whole WOD portion has been all but abandoned for longer than I would have liked. ¬†I went to a class this week and cardio-struggled (as expected) and ball hockey has been harder than I’d like. ¬†Coach Jay and I crossed paths after the WOD Thursday and he said “how was that?! ¬†Been a LONG time since you’ve gone a class!” ¬†Sad face. ¬†It probably showed! ¬†My legs were NOT happy with the box jumps or the wallballs, but at least the cleans were a piece of cake right? ¬†Festivus is today, so starting Monday I hope to get back into the WOD routine so I can confidently call myself a legit crossfitter again! ¬†Oh, and I’ve added a short run to my morning routine as well. ¬†Hoping it all helps ūüôā

The Open

Oh hi! May not even remember me but yes I’m still around. To be honest, not a whole¬†lot has changed which is good and bad at the same time I suppose. It’s Open season and my 4th time through. What a totally different experience doing it with CFC!! First, it’s a way bigger beast than CFD was just in terms of Open competitors. I think we have close to 150 athletes competing and a few with potential to make it to regionals… but everyone is so supportive ūüôā ¬†We have an in house little comp happening as well with points for team spirit and costumes, some of which¬†there’s no¬†way I could work out it lol! ¬†First Open for my girl too and she’s KILLING it ūüėÄ ¬†Recap time!

Open WOD 17.1

AMRAP 20 minutes:
10 dumbbell snatches 35lb
15 burpee box jump-overs 20″
20 dumbbell snatches
15 burpee box jump-overs
30 dumbbell snatches
15 burpee box jump-overs
40 dumbbell snatches
15 burpee box jump-overs
50 dumbbell snatches
15 burpee box jump-overs

Score – 200 Reps Rx ¬†Tie break time –¬†16:31

This WOD kicked my butt HARD!! Not a good way to start Open season at ALL. ¬†After the 20 DB snatches I couldn’t feel my legs at all. ¬†Our couldn’t feel the ground under my feet? Maybe that’s a better description… Anyways,¬†every box jump was an exercise in extreme concentration to not EAT IT! ¬†It was hell, but no battle scars ūüôā (a miracle occurred)

Open WOD 17.2

Complete as many rounds and reps as possible in 12 minutes of:
2 rounds of:
50-ft. weighted walking lunge
16 toes-to-bars
8 power cleans
Then, 2 rounds of:
50-ft. weighted walking lunge
16 bar muscle-ups
8 power cleans

Score Р78 Reps Rx  Tie break time Р7:09 

Greatest judge for this one!! ¬†Neil tried so hard to coach me to my first bar muscle up and believe me I tried SO hard to get it! ¬†No dice though… added to the list of things to work on ūüôā

Open WOD 17.3

Prior to 8:00, complete:
3 rounds of:
  6 chest-to-bar pull-ups
  6 squat snatches, (95 / 65 lb.)
Then, 3 rounds of:
  7 chest-to-bar pull-ups
  5 squat snatches (135 / 95 lb.)
Prior to 12:00, 3 rounds of:
   8 chest-to-bar pull-ups
  4 squat snatches (185 / 135 lb.)
Prior to 16:00, 3 rounds of:
   9 chest-to-bar pull-ups
  3 squat snatches (225 / 155 lb.)
Prior to 20:00, 3 rounds of:
  10 chest-to-bar pull-ups
  2 squat snatches (245 / 175 lb.)
Prior to 24:00, 3 rounds of:
   11 chest-to-bar pull-ups
  1 squat snatch (265 / 185 lb.)

Score Р43 Reps Rx   Tie break time Р5:02

Yes, I had almost a full 3 minutes to get 1 95lb snatch! ¬†I tried over and over but couldn’t force the confidence to drop under the bar even though i got it to my eyebrows with every attempt. ¬†Kinda frustrating, but…. the next day I GOT it in practice ūüôā ¬†I’ll take it. ¬†Plus… I¬†did get through 25 chest to bar pull-ups which was a HUGE improvement over the last time I faced them in the Open. ¬†Double win.

Open WOD 17.4

Complete as many rounds and reps as possible in 13 minutes of:
55 deadlifts 155lbs
55 wall-ball shots 14lbs
55-calorie row
55 handstand push-ups

Score Р172 Reps Rx  Tie break time Р10:28

This WOD was my fave by FAR this year ūüėÄ ¬†I mean, deadlifts are pretty much my thing and they weren’t that heavy. ¬†To be honest, I kinda wished they were heavier cause it would have tripped people up even more. ¬†Thankfully it was a WOD I was totally excited about cause Amanda and I got hit with the flu early in the week and I had just started eating again on Thursday and didn’t work out all week. ¬†I actually¬†re-did this WOD after my judge on Friday measured my HSPU line too high and no-repped all of my push-ups. ¬†So frustrating! ¬†I will say I loved it less the second time through cause my body just wasn’t recovered enough to go through that again, but it was totally worth it to get credit for the HSPU!! ¬†(and I added 2 reps ūüėČ )

Open WOD 17.5

10 rounds for time of:
9- Thrusters 65lbs
35- Double-unders

Time – 28:10 Rx

Yucky. ¬†Pretty much sums it up! ¬†But WHAT?! ¬†This kid¬†actually pulled off 350 double unders! Yes, you read that correctly. ¬†No idea where they came from… Also added to the list! ¬†The funny part of this one, I pushed to get as far as I could and when the clock hit 20:00 I stopped thinking “well, I made it to round 8. ¬†Cool” ¬†My judge looked at me and said “are you ok?” I completely thought I was done!! ¬†“You still have 20 minutes!!” she said and for at least a few seconds my heart totally sank! ¬†Worst news EVER, but I picked up my rope and finished the beast. ¬†Looking back it was probably that mistake which allowed me to finish in the time I did. ¬†There’s always that extra push when you’re near the end of a WOD (or think you are) and I guess I kinda had a double on this time :p

Finding my rhythm 

“So, this week has been different. I figured I’d ease into the transition of WODing less and lifting more, ¬†but when Amanda decided she wanted to try to we sorta jumped in with both feet! The game plan was (and I think still is essentially) lift Monday and Wednesday with a Coach Carson, Tuesday by ourselves, then WOD Friday and Saturday. Except yesterday’s WOD didn’t sound great so we lifted Friday too! The only problem¬†I see that could happen is I never used to cherry pick workouts. The WOD was the only option, so I just sucked it up and did it even when it sounded horrible. Now there’s another option ūüė≥ I mean, we still got a great workout, but I haven’t really sweat yet this week and my Fitbit thinks I’ve maybe died or been kidnapped or something. There’s a huge positive note coming… Tuesday I PR’d my snatch!!! Finally after like 100 years!! ūüėĀ AND my girl PR’d pretty much everything. Snatch, overhead squat, deadlift (200lb club!!), strict press, back squat… it’s been a great week. ¬†Saturday partner WOD was a sweat fest, so nice way to round things off too.



On the nutrition front, I’m trying to not fall into old habits in terms of mindset. When I change something and don’t see mad results after two weeks I tend to get discouraged… I don’t think my clothes are fitting any different and the number on the scale hasn’t really budged. I know there are other factors that could be affecting that (like being a GIRL), but my negativity still wants to trash talk my efforts. Anyways… I’m sticking to the plan and hoping I’m on the right path. My days are pretty routine for food:

Breakfast – 2 eggs, 1/3 sweet potato

Snack – beef protein shake, 1/4 cup oats+1 tbsp flax+1/2 tbsp chia+6 almonds+1/2 banana

Lunch – BBQ’d chicken breast, BBQ’d veggies

Snack – 1/2 chicken breast, 2 tbsp BBQ sauce, snap peas, carrots

Dinner – BBQ’d chicken breast or salmon, BBQ’d veggies

*sometimes there’s a second protein shake, or double oatmeal depending on the day/WOD. My one guilty pleasure is the BBQ sauce ūüė¶ one days I might get over that but maybe not. Not much variety, but SO tasty and Amanda and I are both cool with it, so whatever. All works out to around 1,400 cals per day with 130-150g protein, 100-125g carbs, 40g fat. I’ve basically cut the fat in half and doubled the carbs. Now my fingers are crossed it’s the right recipe for my stupid body.

Now there’s a plan


Let us back-track for a moment… 5 years ago I had just moved to Waterloo. ¬†I had been living a pretty crazy life with a long drive to and from work every day and LOTS of ball hockey. Also quite committed to the global gym scene. ¬†I had recently started the whole Paleo routine trying to fix some health crap. Oh! And I was skinny!! Not healthy necessarily despite all my efforts, but shopping for pants mad me happy for the first time in my life. Unfortunately that was the only thing really at time, but it was pretty huge. Life in Waterloo was a real change. I was 6km from my job, with an awesome gym in between. I had so much time on my hands I didn’t really know what to do with it at first, but I figured it out. Reconnected with an old friend from work who had gotten into personal training and started lifting. You probably know that drill… Monday leg day, Tuesday back and biceps, etc. ¬†Pretty boring stuff, but I wanted to gain some muscle. Then one day I found crossfit. It was new for me, but brought the cardio element back to my world which I had been missing (Waterloo doesn’t offer the same ball hockey opportunities Toronto did!!). It was new, and scary, and exciting… and FUN!! ¬†Downside… I slowly started to gain weight. At first I thought, all good its muscle. And in a sense I was right! But every season I was shopping for new clothes cause the old ones didn’t fit anymore. After a while I started to freak out a bit, so I tightened up my diet (which was pretty strictly Paleo already) and worked out more. But the weight kept creeping up. Could I have been going about things all wrong?! Fast forward to today and finally realizing that crossfit and Paleo could be responsible for my weight gain!! WTF!?!? I read this a few days ago which really got the ball rolling in my mind:


I felt like this guy completely understood how I’ve felt!! I mean, I have a pretty decent 6-pack that I’ve worked really¬†hard for, but there’s this layer of body fat covering everything. ¬†I did a bit more reading and decided it was time for a change. I had already made the decision to give up nut butters, which at least had me in the right direction, but I’m increasing my carbs as well. After 5 years of quite a low carb intake, it might be just what my body needs? Or I might get fatter. I’m really hoping option A is reality. ¬† There’s a part 2 to this rant. With dropping the fat content, my macros were in line with what Coach Jen had recommended at my nutrition consult, but my calories were still quite low. ¬†So I asked! Explained my frustration and what I was looking for and got another response I hadn’t been expecting! ¬†My focus had been set on adjusting the diet component once again, but Jen’s thoughts were along a different line. ¬†Could crossfit be to blame? ¬†Seriously?? ¬†So now it’s a matter of trying to determine wether my super-clean eating or intense workout routine is the reason I can’t shed a few pounds. ¬†Not binge eating, or nights of drinking, or sitting on the couch… a clean diet or exercise. ¬†What. The. FUCK. ¬†Jen is also looking to lean out before a very important event in June, so she is readjusting her workout routine with the same goal in mind. ¬†“We could lift together! ¬†Misery loves company, right?” she said haha! ¬†Anyways, her plan involves just lifting 3 times a week and cutting the WODs to 2 per week MAX. ¬†They are great, but they cause stress on your body (says Jen) Some people handle stress by loosing weight, some bodies go into panic mode and store¬†everything as fat! ¬†So… sitting on the couch might actually be a more effective way to lose weight? ¬†I don’t know… so confused. ¬†What I DO know is crossfit keeps me sane and happy, so I’m making¬†some¬†adjustment to my workout routine for now but focusing more on the nutrition part. ¬†Last night we went to Olympic lifting class instead of the WOD for the first time in ages ūüôā ¬†It’s kinda strange how I used to feel like I was ripping myself off from the sweatfest I needed and just went through the motions of the class without much enthusiasm. ¬†Last night was so different! ¬†I loved it ūüôā ¬†and Coach Carson is amazing! ¬†The crossfit side of things will benefit SO much from working with him too. ¬†Plus if I can actually lean out a little the gymnastic parts should improve as well.

Anyways… long rant. ¬†I have always had a goal, but now I feel like I have a plan too. ¬†Hopefully that’s the difference this time. ¬†To be continued…


This post could be a chaotic one… just saying. ¬†I’ve got a bunch of thoughts swimming around in my head and I’m not entirely sure how I’m going to put them all down quite yet. ūüôā

Tomorrow a good-sized group from CFC are starting the Whole Life Challenge. ¬†I considered it, but A: I’ve already done it. ¬†Twice. ¬†B: I can think of better ways to spend money right now. ¬†C: Although I¬†did seriously consider it, I just couldn’t see how it would create enough of an impact to make a difference. ¬†I eat clean. ¬†Other than the once a month pizza night cheat meal, I’d have to give up gum and spend more $$ on clean bacon. ¬†Just not enough of a difference to make a difference. ¬†Anywho… I’ve decided to give up nut butter for the duration of the challenge instead. ¬†Cause as always, I’m not happy with my body and want to find whatever is making me carry around extra fat. ¬†I mean, I¬†have abs! ¬†I can see them sometimes… like when I move or whatever. ¬†But I want to just see them. ¬†So maybe no nut butter will help.

I’m dealing with an MS relapse this week. ¬†Not a bad one, but still not fun and in a totally new environment makes it challenging. ¬†My Henry’s crew new me. ¬†They new what was normal and how to help when things were rough. ¬†So did my CFD crew. ¬†This is a new experience with Amanda too and I’m really doing my best to communicate things with her and help her understand. ¬†I know how it feels to be on the other side of things too where you just want to help but you have no idea how. ¬†I read a post yesterday (while sitting on my butt with a warm Magic Bag draped over my legs) that described very well the communication challenges. ¬†I shared the post with Amanda cause it seemed easier than trying to interpret my own version. ¬†The author refers to MS as her sidekick. ¬†It’s something that has an invisible but constant impact on your physical well-being and state of mind. ¬†Yet no matter how long you’ve been living with this sidekick, it can still be quite challenging to decide how much to keep to yourself. ¬†It’s also challenging cause when things are my normal I have no need to share anything, but when something comes up I mentally often don’t have the space in my mind to also take into consideration how to explain what I’m dealing with. ¬†My mind is occupied with “Just get through this. ¬†It will pass.” ¬†I mentioned to Amanda yesterday, it’s a battle in my mind cause there can be a fine line between I don’t want you to feel like I’m shutting you out and I don’t want to get to the point where it’s like a broken record. ¬†This week os thankfully not too bad. ¬†I can still crossfit (although not quite at my usual intensity but it’s something!). ¬†Coach Jason approached me after the WOD on Tuesday where I had scaled to a 75lb bar when I really wanted to try at least 95 and commented “is that YOUR bar?! You could have done heavier! ūüėČ ” Oh, trust me… it’s a tough enough mental battle to convince myself to be smart. ¬†I did call in sick to work yesterday, which is hugely odd for me, but the pain in my legs has been pretty intense. ¬†Ever had frostbite? ¬†Know how it feels when your frozen bits start to warm up again? ¬†Well, that painful burning sensation has moved in from just above my knees to my toes and doesn’t seem to want to leave quite yet. ¬†Anyways, if it interests you here’s the post I read:

I had my weekly dose of puppy therapy on Wednesday ūüôā ¬†Pluto came to work with me and kept me smiling. ¬†He’s actually the only reason I didn’t call in sick Wednesday too, but look at this kid? ¬†How could I pass up the chance to chill with him?


Amanda and I are starting a little side project together. ¬†I’ve been hired to shoot at CFC (like, NOT for free!) and ¬†my awesome girl wants to join the fun too! ¬†When we shoot together I figured it wasn’t right to just put my signature on the photos so yesterday we came up with a name and logo ūüôā ¬†With the Open right around the corner, we’ll have plenty of opportunity to shoot too!



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