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Now there’s a plan

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Let us back-track for a moment… 5 years ago I had just moved to Waterloo.  I had been living a pretty crazy life with a long drive to and from work every day and LOTS of ball hockey. Also quite committed to the global gym scene.  I had recently started the whole Paleo routine trying to fix some health crap. Oh! And I was skinny!! Not healthy necessarily despite all my efforts, but shopping for pants mad me happy for the first time in my life. Unfortunately that was the only thing really at time, but it was pretty huge. Life in Waterloo was a real change. I was 6km from my job, with an awesome gym in between. I had so much time on my hands I didn’t really know what to do with it at first, but I figured it out. Reconnected with an old friend from work who had gotten into personal training and started lifting. You probably know that drill… Monday leg day, Tuesday back and biceps, etc.  Pretty boring stuff, but I wanted to gain some muscle. Then one day I found crossfit. It was new for me, but brought the cardio element back to my world which I had been missing (Waterloo doesn’t offer the same ball hockey opportunities Toronto did!!). It was new, and scary, and exciting… and FUN!!  Downside… I slowly started to gain weight. At first I thought, all good its muscle. And in a sense I was right! But every season I was shopping for new clothes cause the old ones didn’t fit anymore. After a while I started to freak out a bit, so I tightened up my diet (which was pretty strictly Paleo already) and worked out more. But the weight kept creeping up. Could I have been going about things all wrong?! Fast forward to today and finally realizing that crossfit and Paleo could be responsible for my weight gain!! WTF!?!? I read this a few days ago which really got the ball rolling in my mind:

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I felt like this guy completely understood how I’ve felt!! I mean, I have a pretty decent 6-pack that I’ve worked really hard for, but there’s this layer of body fat covering everything.  I did a bit more reading and decided it was time for a change. I had already made the decision to give up nut butters, which at least had me in the right direction, but I’m increasing my carbs as well. After 5 years of quite a low carb intake, it might be just what my body needs? Or I might get fatter. I’m really hoping option A is reality.   There’s a part 2 to this rant. With dropping the fat content, my macros were in line with what Coach Jen had recommended at my nutrition consult, but my calories were still quite low.  So I asked! Explained my frustration and what I was looking for and got another response I hadn’t been expecting!  My focus had been set on adjusting the diet component once again, but Jen’s thoughts were along a different line.  Could crossfit be to blame?  Seriously??  So now it’s a matter of trying to determine wether my super-clean eating or intense workout routine is the reason I can’t shed a few pounds.  Not binge eating, or nights of drinking, or sitting on the couch… a clean diet or exercise.  What. The. FUCK.  Jen is also looking to lean out before a very important event in June, so she is readjusting her workout routine with the same goal in mind.  “We could lift together!  Misery loves company, right?” she said haha!  Anyways, her plan involves just lifting 3 times a week and cutting the WODs to 2 per week MAX.  They are great, but they cause stress on your body (says Jen) Some people handle stress by loosing weight, some bodies go into panic mode and store everything as fat!  So… sitting on the couch might actually be a more effective way to lose weight?  I don’t know… so confused.  What I DO know is crossfit keeps me sane and happy, so I’m making some adjustment to my workout routine for now but focusing more on the nutrition part.  Last night we went to Olympic lifting class instead of the WOD for the first time in ages 🙂  It’s kinda strange how I used to feel like I was ripping myself off from the sweatfest I needed and just went through the motions of the class without much enthusiasm.  Last night was so different!  I loved it 🙂  and Coach Carson is amazing!  The crossfit side of things will benefit SO much from working with him too.  Plus if I can actually lean out a little the gymnastic parts should improve as well.

Anyways… long rant.  I have always had a goal, but now I feel like I have a plan too.  Hopefully that’s the difference this time.  To be continued…

Chaotic

This post could be a chaotic one… just saying.  I’ve got a bunch of thoughts swimming around in my head and I’m not entirely sure how I’m going to put them all down quite yet. 🙂

Tomorrow a good-sized group from CFC are starting the Whole Life Challenge.  I considered it, but A: I’ve already done it.  Twice.  B: I can think of better ways to spend money right now.  C: Although I did seriously consider it, I just couldn’t see how it would create enough of an impact to make a difference.  I eat clean.  Other than the once a month pizza night cheat meal, I’d have to give up gum and spend more $$ on clean bacon.  Just not enough of a difference to make a difference.  Anywho… I’ve decided to give up nut butter for the duration of the challenge instead.  Cause as always, I’m not happy with my body and want to find whatever is making me carry around extra fat.  I mean, I have abs!  I can see them sometimes… like when I move or whatever.  But I want to just see them.  So maybe no nut butter will help.

I’m dealing with an MS relapse this week.  Not a bad one, but still not fun and in a totally new environment makes it challenging.  My Henry’s crew new me.  They new what was normal and how to help when things were rough.  So did my CFD crew.  This is a new experience with Amanda too and I’m really doing my best to communicate things with her and help her understand.  I know how it feels to be on the other side of things too where you just want to help but you have no idea how.  I read a post yesterday (while sitting on my butt with a warm Magic Bag draped over my legs) that described very well the communication challenges.  I shared the post with Amanda cause it seemed easier than trying to interpret my own version.  The author refers to MS as her sidekick.  It’s something that has an invisible but constant impact on your physical well-being and state of mind.  Yet no matter how long you’ve been living with this sidekick, it can still be quite challenging to decide how much to keep to yourself.  It’s also challenging cause when things are my normal I have no need to share anything, but when something comes up I mentally often don’t have the space in my mind to also take into consideration how to explain what I’m dealing with.  My mind is occupied with “Just get through this.  It will pass.”  I mentioned to Amanda yesterday, it’s a battle in my mind cause there can be a fine line between I don’t want you to feel like I’m shutting you out and I don’t want to get to the point where it’s like a broken record.  This week os thankfully not too bad.  I can still crossfit (although not quite at my usual intensity but it’s something!).  Coach Jason approached me after the WOD on Tuesday where I had scaled to a 75lb bar when I really wanted to try at least 95 and commented “is that YOUR bar?! You could have done heavier! 😉 ” Oh, trust me… it’s a tough enough mental battle to convince myself to be smart.  I did call in sick to work yesterday, which is hugely odd for me, but the pain in my legs has been pretty intense.  Ever had frostbite?  Know how it feels when your frozen bits start to warm up again?  Well, that painful burning sensation has moved in from just above my knees to my toes and doesn’t seem to want to leave quite yet.  Anyways, if it interests you here’s the post I read:

https://www.msconnection.org/Blog/October-2016/An-Inconvenient-Sidekick#

I had my weekly dose of puppy therapy on Wednesday 🙂  Pluto came to work with me and kept me smiling.  He’s actually the only reason I didn’t call in sick Wednesday too, but look at this kid?  How could I pass up the chance to chill with him?

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Amanda and I are starting a little side project together.  I’ve been hired to shoot at CFC (like, NOT for free!) and  my awesome girl wants to join the fun too!  When we shoot together I figured it wasn’t right to just put my signature on the photos so yesterday we came up with a name and logo 🙂  With the Open right around the corner, we’ll have plenty of opportunity to shoot too!

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focus forward

Haven’t been able to figure out where I wanted to go with this. 2016 is more than 2 weeks behind me now and I’m going to be totally one of those people and say “thank GOD it’s over!!”  Don’t get me wrong, it had some pretty awesome highlights, but one of the biggest shit storms my 34+ years has seen. I’m thankful though… I have an amazing girl who has been incredibly supportive ❤  Once Henry’s is officially in the rear view mirror I’ll have a chance to figure out what the next chapter is.

Another great form of therapy… CFC 🙂  Way too much has happened to get caught up completely, but last Friday’s WOD is worth recording.  I was a little sad when we we told Hero Fridays was taking a break till spring, but Open WOD Fridays are pretty awesome too!  Especially when the WODs are ones I’ve seen before.  Well, awesome in an “oh joy!!  I get to relive that horror!!” kind of way, but still!  I get to kick my old score in the butt too.  When I first say 14.3 I was 7 months in to Crossfit and managed to complete 95 reps.  I went in to round 2 excited to see how far I’ve come since then.  Didn’t disappoint myself at all.

Friday Jan. 13

Open WOD 14.3
AMRAP 8 Minutes:
10 Deadlifts #95
15 Box Jumps
15 Deadlifts #135
15 Box Jumps
20 Deadlifts #155
15 Box Jumps
25 Deadlifts #185
15 Box Jumps
30 Deadlifts #205
15 Box Jumps
35 Deadlifts #235
15 Box Jumps

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Victory! :)

Life is messy right now. Stress level is pretty much off the charts thanks to Henrys, but that’s hopefully nearing the end. Sport Chek I’m so very grateful I kept in my back pocket for all these years cause I was only “unemployed” (ish) for a little more than 2 weeks before walking into a new full time role. Curiously enough, right back to the same store I was full time in before I first took the job at Henrys… but anyways, I’m happy to be working 🙂 On the hunt for what I want to be when I grow up still, but not bored and losing my mind. Having a job to do also put an end to my excessive WODing :p it was good therapy when I needed it, but as a friend mentioned “just think… soon you’ll need physio and you’ll be able to make friends there too!” Ha-ha.

Anyways… I’ve gone back to logging my WODs on paper cause I suck at this format lately and I got my girl into that habit too so I’m actually accountable there. However – I SMASHED my previous Grace PR and I’m pretty excited so that was worth sharing! I  recorded an Rx Grace time for the first time this year in May 9:53.  Yesterday I killed that one! 4:01 😀 and Grace wasn’t even technically a part of the WOD!

Mon. Nov. 28:

BUY IN – OTM, 8 min:
3 Back Squats

WOD –
4 min MAX Clean & Jerks #95 (30 reps)
– rest 1 min
3 min MAX Bar-hop Burpees (35 reps)
– rest 1 min
2 min MAX Back Squats (30 reps)
– rest 1 min
1 min MAX Toes to Bar (14 reps)

Score – 109

Finding purpose

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Hey! Don’t think I shared… I won a camera 🙂 a Fuji X-T10!  It’s pretty sweet 🙂 fresh snow clung to the trees Thursday so Yuko and I went to our fav. trail for a camera test drive.  I have some playing around to do still, but I’m a fan so far 🙂

Today I’ve got a bunch of stuff.  This week has pulled in 100 different directions, but thankfully the crazy part is done now. I think…

Day 1 of another round of Whole Life Challenge. This one could be interesting just cause I’m in a different place mentally than I was last time. When I signed up for round 2 I was in a bit of a rut with nutrition cause I think it was in the middle of my December work insanity. I was eating cookies and candy canes and chocolate and really felt I could use the challenge to clean my act up in the new year. Today, the only thing I need to cut out of my diet is Quest bars. Again. Clearly that one doesn’t stick when the challenge ends. I have set a goal to eat better though. You can eat squeaky-clean but still not eat to perform. Like all the nights I skip dinner to spend time with my girlfriend should be re-jigged. Also need to food prep for snacks again. Chopped up fresh veggies will help me stay away from looking for a few dates and a handful of nuts.  Also need to find peace within my own mind with me for me.  I’ve known that for a long lime, but it’s easier said than done.

Segway into my second topic – Thursday I went to Healthoholics for food sensitivity testing. I clearly find the powers of nutrition pretty fascinating, so I was curious. They test you for more than 600 things! Also can locate any troubles your body is having in terms of digestive process and any deficiencies for vitamins and minerals. I think that’s the Coles notes… We talked about a LOT! I was not surprised to confirm wheat and dairy are not my friend.  I didn’t expect potatoes to be on that list too, but they were. Thankfully not sweet potatoes! We get along just fine. She also told me fatty acids were low. “Eat nuts and seeds” was a suggestion. 😐 I do! Too many! But need to change something cause I’m not absorbing the nutrients, probably just the fat… on my thighs :p

Amanda gave me her cold on New Years. The way I do things is I catch a cold, then my body seems to feel the need to put a whole new spin on it. Make it all my own… And hang onto it forever. It’s January 16th and everyday I seem to wake up to a little something different. Yesterday I had this annoying cough that didn’t really feel like it was accomplishing anything, but my abs are sore today so maybe I shouldn’t complain. May have had nothing to do with the cough… Anyways, shortness of breath made this bad boy even more awesome:

Fri. Jan. 15:

3 Rounds:
12- Deadlifts #275/#185  #135
24- Box Jumps
36- Wallballs

Time – 12:00

I made it to Sharon’s 7:30 class for the first time in ages 🙂 December is finally over… Life is returning to normal. Also got to WOD with TB, who I’ve missed seeing 🙂 This WOD kinda sucked. The wallballs are 110% to blame for that too.

Week 1 of WLC has a lifestyle component of journal writing 10 minutes every day. I’ve just completed my mission. 😉

on the fence

Wed. May 13:

Yuko is 4 months old today 😀  My once-little-puppy is growing into a very handsome young man.  And such a good boy!  I called him in the middle of the dog park a few days ago and he came right away.  A few jaws dropped haha!  “OMG he came to you surrounded by other dogs?!” one guy commented.  “My dog is 10 and doesn’t listen that well!”  🙂  That felt good.  I’m doing something right!  (and it helps that he’s just awesome too)

4 months today!

4 months today!

Ok, I’m going to share a message I posted on facebook a few days ago in the Women of CFD group:

I need to rant for a minute. Summer is coming, got a taste of the warmer weather last week. Summer means no more jackets, no more hoodies and big comfy clothes. Exciting, right? How about when it means trying on all of last years clothes and realizing your butt and thighs just don’t fit into anything anymore. I’ve heard from many people “Kate! Shut up you’re not fat. Like at all.” but we each have our own perceptions of ourselves and perception is reality. This is mine. I just finished a round of Whole30 in April. I stuck through it no matter how tough it got at times… I mean come on! Who starts a chocolate abstinence routine a few days before Easter?? But although I was successful with my level of commitment for the whole thing, I was pretty disappointed at the end. Here’s the dumb part – I DID manage to kick my chocolate addiction. Win. and I PR’d my deadlift. Also Win. That should be more important than the number on the scale, right? Wrong. Again, my reality. What I just can’t seem to come to terms with is the fact that I eat super clean on a regular basis, get lots of sleep, drink lots of water and work out 5-6 times a week yet still my clothes don’t fit. Pre-crossfit I ate similar but with more frequent cheats, worked out not nearly as often, yet I was pretty little. I hate to even admit this, but I’ve had moments of thinking maybe I should give up crossfit for a while and see what happens… but that thought doesn’t stick around for long. Crossfit is so much more than just lifting, kipping, jumping, pushing, pulling, squatting and burpees. Thank god for that, cause if it was JUST about burpees… Especially CFD. I can’t even imagine my life without our community. You can always get new clothes, but never in my life have I felt a part of group of people that even compares to what we have here. For the first time in my life I feel like I actually understand the meaning of family smile emoticon While I won’t say I’ll get over my issues with feeling like the fat kid, I’m 100% over considering giving up something I love so much just to maybe fit into my skinny jeans again…
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These demons will follow me forever…  Here’s the thing – I’m tired of being hungry and I’m tired of feeling snausaged into my clothes.  Fixing one, will only make the other worse… so I need to figure out if I can live with the balance of both, or one extreme.  One good thing… it’s not sweltering hot in Ontario today, so at least I don’t feel like a sweaty snausage.  Got to the hill this morning for the 6:00am hump day hill WOD to a windy 6 degrees!  Quite a contrast from 30 on Saturday.  The WOD was a partner thing – 5 trips up the hill each, using a different form of travel each time.  The options were: lunges, running, run 20 steps/10 squats, sandbag carry, or run 20 steps/5 broad jumps (which turned into little bunny hops as the incline increased).  Most of it sucked.  But in the best possible way.  My legs hate me right now, but I love that we’ve started the Wednesday thing cause it kinda still counts as a rest day, right?  I mean, I don’t go to the box… And I need the cardio.  Without the hill it would have been really tough to avoid going later.  Today’s WOD sounds gooooooood!

Tues. May 12:

4 Rounds For Time:
15- Toes To Bar
20- Burpees
25- Kettlebell Swings (53/35)

Time – 16:36

Ok, the last 2 rounds had more knees to elbows than toes to bar, but the first 2 were Rx.  This was gross.  Broke up the toes to bar each round, kept a slowish but consistent pace through the burpees, and recovered during the KBS unbroken.  I find slow and controlled burpees always leave my chest burning the next day.  Again I’ll lay my claim that a burpee should really be called a kipping push-up…

back in business

Happy leprechaun day!  Ahh… St. Patrick’s.  The only day where I’ve ever seen the 5am class kicked back on the couch post-WOD drinking a beer.  No joke!  Any-who… I’m back in business.  In terms of fitnessy-type stuff anyway.  My spotty blog diligence may continue for a little while as I’m still adapting to parenting and waking up in the middle of the night for groggy puppy relief.  For us both!  Most nights I get this dopey “do I have to?” look from Yuko.  Trust me buddy, I don’t want to either!  Seems to be working to prevent any crying/barking/accidents though…

This morning’s WOD was the first since Friday where I’ve actually felt fully functional again.  Good thing!  Cause let’s be honest here… thrusters are just a sneaky way to get those with an aversion to wallballs to perform essentially the same movement, only heavier.  But today things felt great again 🙂

Tues. Mar. 17:

Teams of 3 AMRAP 25 Minutes:
3K Row
100- Dumbbell Snatches- HEAVY   #30
30- Thrusters #75/#55
30- Thrusters 395/#65
30- Thrusters #115/#80  #75 x15
30- Thrusters #135/#95
30- Thrusters #155/#105
Max Thrusters #185/#135 in Time Remaining

So, we didn’t get as far into the thrusters as planned, however still a fun WOD 🙂  Running buddy was part of my team and had wanted to get to the #105’s!  Say what?!  Not even sure I can do ONE #105 thruster??  That’s something to try in the near future…  However, I kind of really like Dumbell Snatches.  Just do.  I grabbed the #25 but Coach Dave gave me the Coach Dave disapproving look and pointed to the #30.  Yes sir!  Glad I took the push, cause it felt great.  Post WOD Sam and I got through the little accessory work for a little pact we’ve made to attempt 3 rounds of 15 GHD sit-ups 2-3 times per week.

Sun. Mar. 15:

Well, if Tuesday was awesomeness… Sunday was a hot mess.  I walked into the box praying there would be no wallballs.  Turns out anything was going to be rough.  My legs were still pretty wrecked.  Warm-up was 3x 4:00 on the rower and even that had me wanting to just cry.  A smart person would have taped out and crashed on a roller for a little mobility work.

AMRAP, 6 minutes:  “Cindy”
3 5 pull-ups
6 10 push-ups
9 15 squats

–RUN 800m–

AMRAP, 6 minutes: “Cindy”
3 5 pull-ups  ring pulls
6 10 push-ups
9 15 squats

The first AMRAP I survived somehow.  Shocking, considering my very first air squat I wasn’t sure I was going to stand up out of.  Then the run was cold and super windy and I grumbled to myself the whole time that “forget it!  I’m done!  I’ll just finish the run, then the couch is MINE!”  Got back inside, sulked in the washroom for a minute, then finished the WOD.  I may not be smart sometimes.  I might be a big baby at others.  But I’m NO quitter.

Now the EXCITING part!!

Crossfit Open WOD 15.3 – AMRAP, 14 minutes:

– 50 wallballs #10

– 200 single unders (not sure that’s even a thing??)

Result – 770 reps

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15.3 offered a scaled version that gave me a chance to use my inability to perform double unders to my advantage!  I’m pretty rock solid on singles after all the WODs I’ve opted for the DU scaling option of 3x the rep count in singles.  So 200 singles, bring it on!  😀  That’s not to say 15.3 wasn’t a kick in the BUTT.  I headed to the box Friday morning as per my usual routine and slid into the first heat to perform this bad boy.  I had laid out a game plan for myself in terms of breaking down the wallballs into sets of 15, 15, 10, 10 and try to keep the skipping unbroken.  First round – plans out the window.  The wallballs felt amazing, so I got a little cocky and did 30 unbroken before taking a break, then 10 & 10.  The first 200 single unders I got caught not paying attention and when the athlete next to me tripped, I tripped as well.  Got it together and completed the set.  Then came the second round of wallballs and with it I realized I was an idiot (for the 30 early on) but regrouped quickly and broke up the reps into smaller sets.  Second round of singles, unbroken baby 🙂  At the end of the day, I finished with a total of 770 reps.  1 whole rep ahead of one of my idols too!  I was pretty ok with that result on Friday, but as the weekend progressed and I watched more and more people perform the WOD I came to the conclusion that I was actually really kinda proud of myself.  When Coach Sharon had said “You KILLED it!” I had thought she was just being nice.  Lol!  And after 2 days of recovery, I could almost walk normally again.

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