Some days it just feels like I’m stuck going through the motions. Get up, get dressed, go to work… but I’m not in a job I want to continue going through the motions with right now. I mean, I like what I’m doing generally, but it’s not the career I see myself in. I had a good job. One I worked really hard to earn but it was taken from me, so now I’m trying to figure out what’s next. Starting next week I’ve stepped down at Sport Chek to part time again and will start something new. I’m both nervous about it and pretty excited, so hopefully it can become what we’re hoping it will 🙂 Also will give me the opportunity to go back to school, which I’m really excited about!
Took the whole weekend off from crossfit after Friday’s WOD pretty much flattened Amanda and I. Went for a hike Saturday instead 🙂 and played ball hockey last night as usual. Well… kinda. I played defence for the first time in a long time and enjoyed it! Lol! Also badly needed a good crockpot weekend to replenish our lunches stash. Last week there was a drought in that regard and the freezer needed to be restocked! After both crocks running Saturday making chicken curry and again Sunday with chili and a beef/vegetable mixture we’re good to go!
Friday July 14:
Right up until the 3, 2, 1 GO!!! I didn’t want to do this one. At all. But once I got going it wasn’t that bad. Got through the 15’s and 12’s and my mind calmed a little knowing the remaining rounds were less than 10 Reps each. Sometimes it’s really just a head game to convince yourself to make it through. I certainly wasn’t fast, but Rx on this one was a huge victory for me!! 90 pull-ups!? Yeeeah! Thankfully my hands didn’t rip up the first set of 3, but the last set ended in bloody palms. Hate that 😕 And another reason there was no WODs happening over the weekend! After a round of Krazy Glu to hold my wounds closed I survived the work day, but at night my hands were kinda angry.
If there’s any interest… my Wahls Diary will be on this blog: https://battleworthfighting.wordpress.com/2017/04/26/my-wahls-diary-prequel/
We survived Festivus Games his past weekend 🙂 Amanda as a competitor and myself as photographer. Still digging myself out after more than 1,500 images were captured, but I’m excited to share these soon! Only a handful of the 130 competitors were from CFC and while it was kinda nice to shoot some different people, I’m always most concerned with capturing “family”. Especially when things are crazy intense like they were at this one with 14 lanes per heat!
Let us back-track for a moment… 5 years ago I had just moved to Waterloo. I had been living a pretty crazy life with a long drive to and from work every day and LOTS of ball hockey. Also quite committed to the global gym scene. I had recently started the whole Paleo routine trying to fix some health crap. Oh! And I was skinny!! Not healthy necessarily despite all my efforts, but shopping for pants mad me happy for the first time in my life. Unfortunately that was the only thing really at time, but it was pretty huge. Life in Waterloo was a real change. I was 6km from my job, with an awesome gym in between. I had so much time on my hands I didn’t really know what to do with it at first, but I figured it out. Reconnected with an old friend from work who had gotten into personal training and started lifting. You probably know that drill… Monday leg day, Tuesday back and biceps, etc. Pretty boring stuff, but I wanted to gain some muscle. Then one day I found crossfit. It was new for me, but brought the cardio element back to my world which I had been missing (Waterloo doesn’t offer the same ball hockey opportunities Toronto did!!). It was new, and scary, and exciting… and FUN!! Downside… I slowly started to gain weight. At first I thought, all good its muscle. And in a sense I was right! But every season I was shopping for new clothes cause the old ones didn’t fit anymore. After a while I started to freak out a bit, so I tightened up my diet (which was pretty strictly Paleo already) and worked out more. But the weight kept creeping up. Could I have been going about things all wrong?! Fast forward to today and finally realizing that crossfit and Paleo could be responsible for my weight gain!! WTF!?!? I read this a few days ago which really got the ball rolling in my mind:
I felt like this guy completely understood how I’ve felt!! I mean, I have a pretty decent 6-pack that I’ve worked really hard for, but there’s this layer of body fat covering everything. I did a bit more reading and decided it was time for a change. I had already made the decision to give up nut butters, which at least had me in the right direction, but I’m increasing my carbs as well. After 5 years of quite a low carb intake, it might be just what my body needs? Or I might get fatter. I’m really hoping option A is reality. There’s a part 2 to this rant. With dropping the fat content, my macros were in line with what Coach Jen had recommended at my nutrition consult, but my calories were still quite low. So I asked! Explained my frustration and what I was looking for and got another response I hadn’t been expecting! My focus had been set on adjusting the diet component once again, but Jen’s thoughts were along a different line. Could crossfit be to blame? Seriously?? So now it’s a matter of trying to determine wether my super-clean eating or intense workout routine is the reason I can’t shed a few pounds. Not binge eating, or nights of drinking, or sitting on the couch… a clean diet or exercise. What. The. FUCK. Jen is also looking to lean out before a very important event in June, so she is readjusting her workout routine with the same goal in mind. “We could lift together! Misery loves company, right?” she said haha! Anyways, her plan involves just lifting 3 times a week and cutting the WODs to 2 per week MAX. They are great, but they cause stress on your body (says Jen) Some people handle stress by loosing weight, some bodies go into panic mode and store everything as fat! So… sitting on the couch might actually be a more effective way to lose weight? I don’t know… so confused. What I DO know is crossfit keeps me sane and happy, so I’m making some adjustment to my workout routine for now but focusing more on the nutrition part. Last night we went to Olympic lifting class instead of the WOD for the first time in ages 🙂 It’s kinda strange how I used to feel like I was ripping myself off from the sweatfest I needed and just went through the motions of the class without much enthusiasm. Last night was so different! I loved it 🙂 and Coach Carson is amazing! The crossfit side of things will benefit SO much from working with him too. Plus if I can actually lean out a little the gymnastic parts should improve as well.
Anyways… long rant. I have always had a goal, but now I feel like I have a plan too. Hopefully that’s the difference this time. To be continued…
This post could be a chaotic one… just saying. I’ve got a bunch of thoughts swimming around in my head and I’m not entirely sure how I’m going to put them all down quite yet. 🙂
Tomorrow a good-sized group from CFC are starting the Whole Life Challenge. I considered it, but A: I’ve already done it. Twice. B: I can think of better ways to spend money right now. C: Although I did seriously consider it, I just couldn’t see how it would create enough of an impact to make a difference. I eat clean. Other than the once a month pizza night cheat meal, I’d have to give up gum and spend more $$ on clean bacon. Just not enough of a difference to make a difference. Anywho… I’ve decided to give up nut butter for the duration of the challenge instead. Cause as always, I’m not happy with my body and want to find whatever is making me carry around extra fat. I mean, I have abs! I can see them sometimes… like when I move or whatever. But I want to just see them. So maybe no nut butter will help.
I’m dealing with an MS relapse this week. Not a bad one, but still not fun and in a totally new environment makes it challenging. My Henry’s crew new me. They new what was normal and how to help when things were rough. So did my CFD crew. This is a new experience with Amanda too and I’m really doing my best to communicate things with her and help her understand. I know how it feels to be on the other side of things too where you just want to help but you have no idea how. I read a post yesterday (while sitting on my butt with a warm Magic Bag draped over my legs) that described very well the communication challenges. I shared the post with Amanda cause it seemed easier than trying to interpret my own version. The author refers to MS as her sidekick. It’s something that has an invisible but constant impact on your physical well-being and state of mind. Yet no matter how long you’ve been living with this sidekick, it can still be quite challenging to decide how much to keep to yourself. It’s also challenging cause when things are my normal I have no need to share anything, but when something comes up I mentally often don’t have the space in my mind to also take into consideration how to explain what I’m dealing with. My mind is occupied with “Just get through this. It will pass.” I mentioned to Amanda yesterday, it’s a battle in my mind cause there can be a fine line between I don’t want you to feel like I’m shutting you out and I don’t want to get to the point where it’s like a broken record. This week os thankfully not too bad. I can still crossfit (although not quite at my usual intensity but it’s something!). Coach Jason approached me after the WOD on Tuesday where I had scaled to a 75lb bar when I really wanted to try at least 95 and commented “is that YOUR bar?! You could have done heavier! 😉 ” Oh, trust me… it’s a tough enough mental battle to convince myself to be smart. I did call in sick to work yesterday, which is hugely odd for me, but the pain in my legs has been pretty intense. Ever had frostbite? Know how it feels when your frozen bits start to warm up again? Well, that painful burning sensation has moved in from just above my knees to my toes and doesn’t seem to want to leave quite yet. Anyways, if it interests you here’s the post I read:
I had my weekly dose of puppy therapy on Wednesday 🙂 Pluto came to work with me and kept me smiling. He’s actually the only reason I didn’t call in sick Wednesday too, but look at this kid? How could I pass up the chance to chill with him?
Amanda and I are starting a little side project together. I’ve been hired to shoot at CFC (like, NOT for free!) and my awesome girl wants to join the fun too! When we shoot together I figured it wasn’t right to just put my signature on the photos so yesterday we came up with a name and logo 🙂 With the Open right around the corner, we’ll have plenty of opportunity to shoot too!
Haven’t been able to figure out where I wanted to go with this. 2016 is more than 2 weeks behind me now and I’m going to be totally one of those people and say “thank GOD it’s over!!” Don’t get me wrong, it had some pretty awesome highlights, but one of the biggest shit storms my 34+ years has seen. I’m thankful though… I have an amazing girl who has been incredibly supportive ❤ Once Henry’s is officially in the rear view mirror I’ll have a chance to figure out what the next chapter is.
Another great form of therapy… CFC 🙂 Way too much has happened to get caught up completely, but last Friday’s WOD is worth recording. I was a little sad when we we told Hero Fridays was taking a break till spring, but Open WOD Fridays are pretty awesome too! Especially when the WODs are ones I’ve seen before. Well, awesome in an “oh joy!! I get to relive that horror!!” kind of way, but still! I get to kick my old score in the butt too. When I first say 14.3 I was 7 months in to Crossfit and managed to complete 95 reps. I went in to round 2 excited to see how far I’ve come since then. Didn’t disappoint myself at all.
Friday Jan. 13
Open WOD 14.3
AMRAP 8 Minutes:
10 Deadlifts #95
15 Box Jumps
15 Deadlifts #135
15 Box Jumps
20 Deadlifts #155
15 Box Jumps
25 Deadlifts #185
15 Box Jumps
30 Deadlifts #205
15 Box Jumps
35 Deadlifts #235
15 Box Jumps
Some days I’m pretty smart, but then some days not so much. Yesterday was a not so much kind of day I think. Rx didn’t sound that heavy, but I failed to consider the volume of reps. And the fact that I still couldn’t attatch those glorious two letters beside my time cause I still can’t do double unders. 😐 Plus it was my second WOD for the day…
Tues. Oct. 11:
Teams of 2, for time:
75 – 50 – 35
Bench Press #135/
Ok, interpreted this completely wrong. Thought it was 75 airdyne cal, 50 row cal, 35 bench. NOPE! 75 of each, then 50 of each, then 35 of each. Silly me! :p Anyways, it was bad but not that bad. Kept the row above 1500 cal/hr and fought through 94 bench press without lowering the weight. My chest is angry today but all good 🙂
BUY IN – OTM, 12 Minutes
Even minutes: 3 strict press #75/80/85
Odd minutes: 3 strict pull-ups
Double Single Unders
45 Air Squats
40 KB Swings 24/16kg
35 Wallballs 20/14lbs
20 Deadlifts 165/105lbs
15 Power Cleans 165/105lbs
10 Front Squats 165/105lbs
5 Jerks 165/105lbs
Time – 13:40 almost Rx
The CLEANS were KILLER!!! 😮 1… rep… at… a… time! Ugly reps too, but somehow I came out the other side 🙂 Then had to drop the bar a few times during the front squats and jerks and wanted to cry cause that just meant I had to clean the damn thing again, but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger right?? Thankfully I’m not Mario 😉
Fri. Oct. 6:
4 Rounds, for time:
8 Deadlifts 250/175
3 Rope Climbs
Time – 27:53 Rx
Another Hero Friday in the books 🙂 Actually read this one and thought “meh…” but it was gooood! Such a mental grind to keep going, especially for the runs. Is it lame to consider a 600m run long? Well… it felt that way! The “rest” came in the form of burpees….
Today Amanda and I did Annie and Fran before breakfast! Not the typical “Hero Friday” but technically it’s considered benchmark Fridays that has just happened to be all Heroes up until this point. Since first reading the posted WODs early this morning, “Annie are you ok?” keeps playing on repeat in my mind… After 8+ minutes of abuse, I really could care less if Annie is ok or not. I forgot how much I hate abmat sit-ups! Fran, however, was great!! After more than 3 years of crossfitting I actually have a legit Fran time 🙂
Fri. Sept. 16:
Benchmark Friday @ CFC
Double Unders (reps x2 Singles)
Time – 8:50
Time – 8:37 Rx!!
I know I need to put some serious effort into learning the whole Double Unders thing. I know it, but I never seem to find time to do it! There are always so many things I need to work on and I guess other things just take priority over whipping myself brutally.
Thurs. Sept. 15:
Benchmark Friday @ CFC
Buy In – Bench Press + Pendley Row
Every 2:30 minutes for 10 minutes:
5 Bench Press #95
10 Pendley Row #55
15 Ground to Overhead #55
12 Ground to Overhead #75
9 Ground to Overhead #95
6 Ground to Overhead #105
Time – 15:40 Rx
Buy in was ok today. The weight felt good for the bench and super-light for the rows, but we were working in partners and didn’t really have time to add to both. The WOD was great even though I was all over the place! There were enough people in the 7pm class that we ran out of 10lb plates! My game plan was all neatly formulated in my head to snatch the first two rounds and switch to clean and jerk for the rest. Also planned to start with a 10 per side, switch to a 15 and a 5 for the second group, add the tens back for the third, and replace the 10 with another 15 for the fourth. Lots of switching, but made perfect sense! Until the workout started and I lost my game plan somewhere during the first run. Came back and loaded the bar uneven… regrouped and completed the round as planned. Except for the snatch part! I was flustered and just started cleaning. All good… Then round 4 I over loaded the bar! Failed my first 2 attempts before realizing it was #115 not #105! Regrouped again and finished the WOD. Dead… last. LOL! But at least I finished it 🙂