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Archive for February, 2013

Far from home…

Well… Sitting in the airport waiting to board the plane… Today begins the journey of vacationing with my mom for the first time. Its also the first time vacationing since beginning my paleo life. A whole week away… From life, from stress, from work… But also from my kitchen and the gym!!! Wish me luck!

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one life, LIVE it.

myreality

Sorry I suck right now.  So busy!  Working lots, working out LOTS, cooking some, and getting ready to head to sun and sand next week.  Poor me, ya I know! :p  Next week I’m really going to suck 😉

Just a note…  So, I often throw the “Multiple Sclerosis” tag on my posts, but never talk about it.  The whole thought process there is: I write about LIFE and how I choose to live mine.  I have MS, but I still do my best to live the life I want to live.  Being diagnosed with anything WILL change a person’s life, but it’s up to the individual which path they choose to take.  The whole experience certainly opened my eyes to the importance of appreciating the people and things I do have and can do. 

Three times a week, this is my reality…  Also probably the reason I have very little patience for people who cry about how rough their life is and carry on the sob story looking for sympathy.  In my mind, it always could be worse.  Life really is too short to sweat the trivial things…

wed. rant

Need to rant for a second. Why do some guys insist on wearing short shorts to the gym?  Really?  No one wants to see that.  Another question that often crosses my mind… when working with a trainer, why does it seem many people can’t be bothered to put any effort into their workout?  I saw a lady yesterday just carelessly swinging the weights around, clearly more interested in a good chat rather than a good workout.  I can think of cheaper ways to find someone to talk to… hmm.. whatever I guess.

On a more positive not – 215lb hack squats Monday 😀 Boo-ya!!  The best part was when the next guy (yes, guy) got onto the machine after me.  The astonished look on his face felt awesome.  Climbing the stairs at work the next day didn’t feel quite as awesome… but it’s a pleasure-pain that reminds me just how hard I worked… 🙂  Hockey night tonight, so should have a good chance to run the stiffness out.  Especially since we are playing a bit of a ball hockey GOD.  :s  eek.

And cause it’s really all just food and fitness for me right now… here’s a quick bit of Paleo deliciousness… Herb Spinach Chicken Burgers.  Wow tasty!

Herb Spinach Chicken Burger

Herb Spinach Chicken Burger

lost, but finding

“Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that’s why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that’s why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living.”  Alysha Speer

Today I got “lost”.  I don’t even know how to rationalize with myself how or why it happened :p  My alarm went off at 6:00 (yes, I actually sleep until my alarm now!  odd in itself…) I got up, went through my usual morning routine, then standing in my kitchen clutching my morning cup of hot, black, heaven, I just sorta got stuck.  😮  Get your mind outta the gutter.  I’m talking about coffee, jeez…  I fooled around aimlessly on my iPad for a bit, cooked an egg white omelet to take to work, and decided my stove top, counter top and inside of the microwave could use a wipe down…  Not that my morning was a complete waste, but I avoided what I knew I should be doing.  The gym.  The concept of me not going to the gym is crazy.  I kept telling myself… get it together and at least go for a run.  Nope.  Didn’t happen.  My kitchen is clean though.  The only reasoning I can come up with is I’m getting bored, but I don’t want to let myself accept that!  😮  Today is day 36 of my 100 day transformation challenge.  Just over 1/3 of the way through, so I can’t let myself get bored already!  Sigh…  Now, since I didn’t suck it up and hit the gym before work, I’ll have to REALLY suck it up and go after my 10 hour shift.  And I’m short-staffed.  haha!  I guess that will be my chance for a little personal victory…  my chance to push past all the crap in my head that gets in the way…

release

Since moving closer to work, I’ve added 2-3 extra hours to my day.  Hours that I’m still trying to figure out what to do with!  When I was commuting to and from work every day, in the car was where I did all my thinking and day dreaming.  Now, I’m learning to find other ways to sort through the my thoughts.  It’s messy :p  My second home is the gym.  It’s the place where I do the most of my thinking and the treadmill seems to be my favourite place to deal with any emotional garbage.  Lifting heavy sh-tuff helps with anger or frustration.  :p  Both of those are usually with myself though…yo-berries

Speaking of online wanderings… I’m completely hooked on Pinterest

I have found sooo many awesome new Paleo recipes to try 🙂  I haven’t posted a whole lot of food pics lately cause I’ve found I’m not all that creative right now!  I cook what I like, and generally it seems to be the same stuff over and over…  Amazing how it’s really not as much fun cooking for one!  Found this little treat the other day and all you need is some fresh berries and greek yogurt.  Dip the berries in the yogurt, drop on a parchment lined cookie sheet, and into the freezer.  Simple, and tasty! 

I do have a little list of fun things I want to try though, so stay tuned for more pics and reviews coming soon… 😉

uphill battle

Remember my 13 days of kicking the cranberries and walnuts?  Well… today is day 3 and I’m getting better at it.  Day 1, I did really well all day at work… then got home and jumped off the wagon… head first.  Day 2 was better.  I subbed in avocado pudding when I was jones’n really bad.  Day two was an emotional nightmare.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m a big time holiday lover.  Christmas, Halloween, Thanksgiving… I get all festive and sh-tuff.  VALENTINE’S DAY SUCKS.  Especially when it’s the first one after a heart shattering break up.  I dealt with it as I usually do… I went to the gym.  Not only did I CRUSH my shoulders & traps routine, I had some “run therapy” on the treadmill including 10 minutes of wonderfully hard speed intervals.  It was awful, and I LOVED it.  🙂  Felt a lot better after too.

Anyways, today is day 3.  So far, so good.  I’ve learned that working a closing shift at my store suits me MUCH better than opening.  I’m a morning person for sure and at night I’m a big baby when I get tired. :p  Today I’m working the closing shift, which let me get in a kick-ass workout this morning before heading into work in a great frame of mind 🙂  I even relaxed for a few moments with a cup of coffee before hustling out the door.  Then whipped up the “lazy Paleo” breakfast of scrambled egg whites (made in the microwave) and, of course, bacon.  mmm…  I love to cook, but some days…  ya.

the lazy Paleo

the lazy Paleo

Do I complain a lot?  Cause I have a little rant to spill here… I don’t like “arms” day.  Thankfully I was able to get to it in the morning, cause if I had been stuck hitting the gym after work I would have made excuses not to do it and probably gone to yoga or something instead.  Not that there is anything wrong with yoga…  In a perfect world, I’d be able to work legs and shoulders every day and get ripped and toned all over…

self detox

Today is day 33 of the 100 day transformation challenge.  benchdipI’m not sure my opinion on the progress thus far though…  Not that the goals I set are not being met I guess, I wanted to build muscle and gain strength.  The only downfall has been getting “thicker” in the process and not being able to run as much as I like to.  Thicker, like through the waist, hips and thighs.  “Suck it up princess”  I know…  BUT I’ll be in a bikini in less than 2 weeks…  Whatever.  Sunday and Monday I had workouts with “personal best” exercises which felt great.  Sunday was chest and triceps and I pushed the dumbbell chest press to 30lb dumbbells 🙂  Also teamed up with a buddy from work, which meant bench press was possible without having to rely on the Smith machine as my spotter.  I really have no problems with working out alone, but it’s amazing how a little friendly competition can help to push beyond limitations…  Monday was quads, hams and calves.  I sucked it UP through this workout too and upped the weight on “v-squats” and “leg curl”.  Rarr!

nemesis

While today is day 33 in my first challenge, today is day 1 in another mission I have set for myself.  This challenge involves cutting back on my nemesis, pictured left.  Dried cranberries and walnuts are the vice I’m ridiculously addicted too.  I wake UP thinking about them…  mmm…  but I hope that getting back to my Paleo path of no grains, no legumes AND NO SUGAR 😮  might help me feel great about slipping into a bikini…  Crazy addiction is expensive too, so a little more money in my pocket might be nice as well 😀  Heavy lifting requires the calories and fat to build muscle, so I will try adding more avocado to my diet to make up for the nuts.  Will also transition from my strictly “egg whites” regime to incorporate a few yokes into the mix… 

It’s only 13 days…  THIRTEEN days…  sigh…  I can do it!  (I hope!)  Definitely also hoping the time will come where I don’t think about those damn things constantly.  It’s ridiculous.

Zonked!

Woke up early today to hit the gym with a buddy before jumping into my crazy day off list of sh*t to do.
Banana pancakes

Why is it days off are crazier than work days? exhausted by the end… thankfully tomorrow is back to work!  haha!  Before heading to the gym, i mashed out a set of banana pancakes.  Perfect pre-workout fuel.  🙂 Mashed banana, egg whites and a little cinnamon and presto!  mmmmm…. Today was chest and triceps.  It rocked having a spotter, cause my chest press with the bar, and latter with dumbbells was a personal best.  🙂

Also went shopping for some apartment stuff with my mom.  I actually got to break up my computer table and coffee table matching rubbermade bins.  There would have been a new tv stand too, had it fit in my car!  Nest time… 😉

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